11 June 2008
I'm sad today.
Today is not a good day. Today is one of those days when i cant "turn my frown upside down" or just put on a happy face and make everything seem ok. I do that alot. i'm the one thats always just supposed to be fun and outgoing...loud and crazy. imthe one that always has somethin funny to say when my friends are having a bad day. i cant today. im havin my own issues. today i cant front like im all tough and i dont care. like moving on from somethin that has been in your life for so long is easy. its not. tomorrow things will be back to normal. but today, im crying. and i cant stop. I'm sad today.
10 June 2008
It doesnt matter if you're black or white...or does it?
Hello moto! (i dont know why i felt like gretting you all like that...i just did ok?)
I just finished emailin Chocolate Marine. it was a rather deep convo for like 4 emails. I ask him if he would date or marry outside his race.
First lemme clear things up. I do NOT have a problem with black men/women who date outside their race. I DO have a problem with blac men/women who outright REFUSE to date within their race. To me, that there is an issue. I had a man tell me that he would never date a dark skinned woman bc he didnt want his kids to be ugly. HE was darkskinned. To that i rolled my eyes and had to walk away bc obviously he was too ignorant to continue a conversation with
Why is it that for a Black man, its acceptable to be dark skinned? The darker the better. From Morris Chestnut to Tyson Beckford women LOVE the chocolate ( i know i do!) But for women if you arent light, bright and damn near white or exotic in some kind of way...you get no play. Men looooove to talk about how they hate a woman who wears fake nails, eyelashes, hair and push up bras...but they have a poster of beyonce hangin on their ceiling. ummmmm, earth to dumbazz shes wearin and has access to more indian remi (weave) and fur eyelashes than i ever will!!
I also had a guy tell me that while he thinks that light skin/long haired women are more sexy, they are crazy so he would rather date a brownskinned girl like me. Why?! Im crazy too! I swear, the only person who gets approached by more ignorant men than me is Sister Toldja...smh.
I just dont understand it. i know this post is kinda all over the place but deal with it...thats how i like to do things...ummmm i may post again tonight bc a.) i have no life between my two jobs b.) im off tonight and c.) i have to keep my sunshine in italy posted on my life! HEY SUNSHINE!!
TILA! I LOVE YOUUUU! ::inside joke...she gets it::
Pink.
I just finished emailin Chocolate Marine. it was a rather deep convo for like 4 emails. I ask him if he would date or marry outside his race.
First lemme clear things up. I do NOT have a problem with black men/women who date outside their race. I DO have a problem with blac men/women who outright REFUSE to date within their race. To me, that there is an issue. I had a man tell me that he would never date a dark skinned woman bc he didnt want his kids to be ugly. HE was darkskinned. To that i rolled my eyes and had to walk away bc obviously he was too ignorant to continue a conversation with
Why is it that for a Black man, its acceptable to be dark skinned? The darker the better. From Morris Chestnut to Tyson Beckford women LOVE the chocolate ( i know i do!) But for women if you arent light, bright and damn near white or exotic in some kind of way...you get no play. Men looooove to talk about how they hate a woman who wears fake nails, eyelashes, hair and push up bras...but they have a poster of beyonce hangin on their ceiling. ummmmm, earth to dumbazz shes wearin and has access to more indian remi (weave) and fur eyelashes than i ever will!!
I also had a guy tell me that while he thinks that light skin/long haired women are more sexy, they are crazy so he would rather date a brownskinned girl like me. Why?! Im crazy too! I swear, the only person who gets approached by more ignorant men than me is Sister Toldja...smh.
I just dont understand it. i know this post is kinda all over the place but deal with it...thats how i like to do things...ummmm i may post again tonight bc a.) i have no life between my two jobs b.) im off tonight and c.) i have to keep my sunshine in italy posted on my life! HEY SUNSHINE!!
TILA! I LOVE YOUUUU! ::inside joke...she gets it::
Pink.
09 June 2008
Disappointment.
Hello!
Its Monday *blah* but i am countin down the days to DC Caribbean Carnival!! 2 weeks and 5 days exactly!! i will try to take lots of pics since i will be a spectator this year =(. I hope i can play mas next year, but i digress *sigh*
Anyway, I have you ever waited a looooooong time for somethin and when it finally came it didnt live up to any of your expectations? No? well lemme give you an example:
Its sooo hot outside, so you decide that you are gonna go to Coldstone to get some tasty, delicious, creamy, delightful ice cream. Only, you get to the place and the line is outside the door. *boo on that* so you say...nah...its too hot to wait...so ill just head on over to Baskin Robbins which, of course, is pretty much empty. you buy your lil ice cream cone and prepare for the ice cold relief only to realize that: Damn. I should have just waited in line at Coldstone cuz this shit here is nasty...::BLOWNFACE::
This is what happened to me only my Coldstone and Baskin Robbins are men. Coldstone is that chocolate delight of a man that i think i name Chocolate Marine or somethin like that in my previous post. and Baskin Robbins is MGD (referenced in a post this time last year i believe). Ive been waitin to get my groove back and i decided that i liked this guy(chocolate marine) so i was gonna continue to wait until we decided to take our friendship to the next level. but i slipped up yesterday with MGD. and it definitely wasnt worth it. There were no sparks no sun, moon, mountains, or rivers and i didnt see heaven when we "made sweet love"*. Actually, while we were secksin** i continued to watch the movie office space. i glanced up at him a couple times and he was lookin right in my damn face! like starin at me. i had to shut my eyes or i might have rolled them right while he was lookin at me. It was pity pussy. thats exactly what it was. he had been goin on and on about how sexy i was and how he missed miss tina, and how good she was and how he has wet dreams about her. so i gave him some. but only a little bit bc i started to think about Coldstone (the man, not the ice cream) and i thought about him so hard i almost said his name. yep. had to end that right there. Cuz stuff like that just isnt ok.
Did you think the disappointment was over? oh no. it gets worse. Saturday night me and my home girl Jenjamin (no idiot thats not her real name.) went to Pleasure Place in Georgetown and i bought somethin called LoveKisses or somethin like that. Just a lil mini vibrator thing...i had said that i wouldnt use it for singular pleasure (its much better with a partner ;)) but after sundays fiasco i needed to finish the job myself. Long story short that joint was wack and i should never have doubted my trusty pocket rocket as it has never failed me before. Ill know better next time...
i guess thats what i get for not waiting...
pink.
* that was the song off the Nutty Professor Soundtrack!
** stolen courtesy of OpinionatedDiva @ http://www.divaliciousopinions.blogspot.com/
Its Monday *blah* but i am countin down the days to DC Caribbean Carnival!! 2 weeks and 5 days exactly!! i will try to take lots of pics since i will be a spectator this year =(. I hope i can play mas next year, but i digress *sigh*
Anyway, I have you ever waited a looooooong time for somethin and when it finally came it didnt live up to any of your expectations? No? well lemme give you an example:
Its sooo hot outside, so you decide that you are gonna go to Coldstone to get some tasty, delicious, creamy, delightful ice cream. Only, you get to the place and the line is outside the door. *boo on that* so you say...nah...its too hot to wait...so ill just head on over to Baskin Robbins which, of course, is pretty much empty. you buy your lil ice cream cone and prepare for the ice cold relief only to realize that: Damn. I should have just waited in line at Coldstone cuz this shit here is nasty...::BLOWNFACE::
This is what happened to me only my Coldstone and Baskin Robbins are men. Coldstone is that chocolate delight of a man that i think i name Chocolate Marine or somethin like that in my previous post. and Baskin Robbins is MGD (referenced in a post this time last year i believe). Ive been waitin to get my groove back and i decided that i liked this guy(chocolate marine) so i was gonna continue to wait until we decided to take our friendship to the next level. but i slipped up yesterday with MGD. and it definitely wasnt worth it. There were no sparks no sun, moon, mountains, or rivers and i didnt see heaven when we "made sweet love"*. Actually, while we were secksin** i continued to watch the movie office space. i glanced up at him a couple times and he was lookin right in my damn face! like starin at me. i had to shut my eyes or i might have rolled them right while he was lookin at me. It was pity pussy. thats exactly what it was. he had been goin on and on about how sexy i was and how he missed miss tina, and how good she was and how he has wet dreams about her. so i gave him some. but only a little bit bc i started to think about Coldstone (the man, not the ice cream) and i thought about him so hard i almost said his name. yep. had to end that right there. Cuz stuff like that just isnt ok.
Did you think the disappointment was over? oh no. it gets worse. Saturday night me and my home girl Jenjamin (no idiot thats not her real name.) went to Pleasure Place in Georgetown and i bought somethin called LoveKisses or somethin like that. Just a lil mini vibrator thing...i had said that i wouldnt use it for singular pleasure (its much better with a partner ;)) but after sundays fiasco i needed to finish the job myself. Long story short that joint was wack and i should never have doubted my trusty pocket rocket as it has never failed me before. Ill know better next time...
i guess thats what i get for not waiting...
pink.
* that was the song off the Nutty Professor Soundtrack!
** stolen courtesy of OpinionatedDiva @ http://www.divaliciousopinions.blogspot.com/
04 June 2008
So tired...so so tired
At first i couldnt think of what to blog to you guys about. But what better than how tired i am!! I feel so out of control right now. I am workin a 75 hour week between 2 jobs and i just cant fathom how im gonna do this. im only on day 3!! i have 5 more days to go. i woke up so late for work this mornin but i was too tired to even care...lol. i looked at the clock, saw that it was 903 and thought to myself....fuck it. shit happens. no matter how much i rushed, i was gonna be late. so i didnt. i turned on Daddys little girls and went on about my normal routine. it is what it is ya know?
If things were sailing smoothly at my pt job i think i would be fine. but its not. we have gotten a shipment of over 120 boxes in 2 days and we have the Summer Sale comin up (Come see us at The Body Shop Pentagon City!! we need to get some of this shit outta here!! lol) and we are tryna find a place to put all the stuff. Baisically Im in charge of the setup bc our full time assistant manager is off for sun and fun and a fashion design internship in ITALIA *lucky bitch! lol* and my store manager is off to Philly for a week to a much needed visit to her family. I know that once this sale is officially started thingsll be alot better but im feelin like i cant see the light at the end of the tunnel.
also...i dont know if yall know....BUT I HATE MY FULL TIME JOB!! someone get me outta here, seriously...i beg of you. my job in general is hell....workin in the pentagon is hell. I think that makes me feel even more tired than i am bc i hate comin in here every mornin. but instead of complainin i need to really just start lookin for a different job.
*sidenote* i know this is off topic but i only buy cd's when they are old or after ive heard them a couple times from someone else. but i heard ths song on the radio by a girl named Katy Perry called i kissed a girl...and i love that song lol...and *gasp!* im gonna buy the cd when it comes out June 17th.
now let me finish my coke so i can NOT fall asleep at my desk,
pink.
If things were sailing smoothly at my pt job i think i would be fine. but its not. we have gotten a shipment of over 120 boxes in 2 days and we have the Summer Sale comin up (Come see us at The Body Shop Pentagon City!! we need to get some of this shit outta here!! lol) and we are tryna find a place to put all the stuff. Baisically Im in charge of the setup bc our full time assistant manager is off for sun and fun and a fashion design internship in ITALIA *lucky bitch! lol* and my store manager is off to Philly for a week to a much needed visit to her family. I know that once this sale is officially started thingsll be alot better but im feelin like i cant see the light at the end of the tunnel.
also...i dont know if yall know....BUT I HATE MY FULL TIME JOB!! someone get me outta here, seriously...i beg of you. my job in general is hell....workin in the pentagon is hell. I think that makes me feel even more tired than i am bc i hate comin in here every mornin. but instead of complainin i need to really just start lookin for a different job.
*sidenote* i know this is off topic but i only buy cd's when they are old or after ive heard them a couple times from someone else. but i heard ths song on the radio by a girl named Katy Perry called i kissed a girl...and i love that song lol...and *gasp!* im gonna buy the cd when it comes out June 17th.
now let me finish my coke so i can NOT fall asleep at my desk,
pink.
03 June 2008
Dear random people who piss me off
Dear Neighbor,
It never fails. Every morning, evening, or midnight (depending on my schedule) you are sitting on your front porch smokin weed. Now dont get me wrong...everyone has their DOC...and i can get down wit the green goblin sometimes too...but your balcony is attached to the FRONT of the apartment!! I guess you missed the memo that the new neighbor 2 floors up from you is PG police. Or do you not care? Im am gonna assume you do since last night when i got off from work you asked if i could smell it....excuse me? Can i smell it? I caught a contact as i got out the car! Then, i dont know if you dropped the blunt....but at 130 am i wake up to the sound of the fire dept outside!! Red lights and all!! This and you, my freind, are ridiculous.
Dear Intern that sits next to me,
You arent fooling anyone. i know that you are a nosy bitch. you are too quiet over there. and dont think that i didnt notice that whenever i get on the phone you stop typing. I NOTICED. I usually dont speak to people that dont speak to me, but im gonna give you this little gem: When your heels lean waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay over to the left, its either 1. Time to retire them or 2. Stop buying your work shoes from Charlotte Russe. Im just sayin.
And last but not least:
Usher/neyo (no dear, this time)
Im sorry, ive held this in as loong as i could...but i just cant anymore. What is this garbage that you call Love in the Club/Bust it Baby? Now Neyo...ima get to you in a sEcond but Usher i got words for you right now brotha....what is that trash?! Are you really gonna try to get me to belive that you wanna make love to a stranger in the club? No, you wanna smash, dig in them guts or skeet skeet...but not make love. you dont even know her!! Im sorry maybe im takin this to literally...but after the masterpiece that was Confessions, you wait 7 years to put this crap out?! THEN you wanna follow it wit somethin that i guess you thought was real deep and meaningful like Movin Mountains? No. That was a hot ass mess of an idea...and thats all i have to say. Now neyo....WHAT THE HELL WAS YOU THINKIN?! bust it baby? really? so youre really just gonna sing the hook on that song like that? and here i was thinkin you were classy. you know, i stuck up for you when those pictures of you and ur backup dancer baby mama engagin in "oral activity" surfaced. i had ur back....and this is how you repay me?! you know these lil hoodrats bout to be runnin round wit this shit on their ringtone like its cute. ITS NOT! you oughta be slapped! RayJ could have done the hook and i wouldnt have been mad...i mean what else do you expect from him? But you, you disappoint me.
Thank you,
pink.
It never fails. Every morning, evening, or midnight (depending on my schedule) you are sitting on your front porch smokin weed. Now dont get me wrong...everyone has their DOC...and i can get down wit the green goblin sometimes too...but your balcony is attached to the FRONT of the apartment!! I guess you missed the memo that the new neighbor 2 floors up from you is PG police. Or do you not care? Im am gonna assume you do since last night when i got off from work you asked if i could smell it....excuse me? Can i smell it? I caught a contact as i got out the car! Then, i dont know if you dropped the blunt....but at 130 am i wake up to the sound of the fire dept outside!! Red lights and all!! This and you, my freind, are ridiculous.
Dear Intern that sits next to me,
You arent fooling anyone. i know that you are a nosy bitch. you are too quiet over there. and dont think that i didnt notice that whenever i get on the phone you stop typing. I NOTICED. I usually dont speak to people that dont speak to me, but im gonna give you this little gem: When your heels lean waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay over to the left, its either 1. Time to retire them or 2. Stop buying your work shoes from Charlotte Russe. Im just sayin.
And last but not least:
Usher/neyo (no dear, this time)
Im sorry, ive held this in as loong as i could...but i just cant anymore. What is this garbage that you call Love in the Club/Bust it Baby? Now Neyo...ima get to you in a sEcond but Usher i got words for you right now brotha....what is that trash?! Are you really gonna try to get me to belive that you wanna make love to a stranger in the club? No, you wanna smash, dig in them guts or skeet skeet...but not make love. you dont even know her!! Im sorry maybe im takin this to literally...but after the masterpiece that was Confessions, you wait 7 years to put this crap out?! THEN you wanna follow it wit somethin that i guess you thought was real deep and meaningful like Movin Mountains? No. That was a hot ass mess of an idea...and thats all i have to say. Now neyo....WHAT THE HELL WAS YOU THINKIN?! bust it baby? really? so youre really just gonna sing the hook on that song like that? and here i was thinkin you were classy. you know, i stuck up for you when those pictures of you and ur backup dancer baby mama engagin in "oral activity" surfaced. i had ur back....and this is how you repay me?! you know these lil hoodrats bout to be runnin round wit this shit on their ringtone like its cute. ITS NOT! you oughta be slapped! RayJ could have done the hook and i wouldnt have been mad...i mean what else do you expect from him? But you, you disappoint me.
Thank you,
pink.
02 June 2008
No Sex in The Champagne Room...
Or any room for that matter!!! arrrgh! im am sooo frustrated its ridiculous. I try to tell myself that i can handle this. You see, ive kinda put myself on restriction. well not restriction, but i had surgery about 2 weeks ago and the doctor said no strenuous activity. Well honey if it aint strenuous then to me it aint sex ya digg?! lol...so i gave myself until June 14th. Thats a month since the last time i did it! am i gonna be able to last?! i know this sounds pitiful and i sound like i need to see a sex counselor but i dont. i am perfectly normal (aint that what all crazy people say?!) to make matters worse tho...i dont even have anyone in mind. well...i kinda lied. i DO have someone in mind. But the problem with him is that i really like him and just so that i dont run the risk of just makin him a booty call...i feel the need to hold off a lil longer than a month with him. im thinkin June 21st...lol. thats only a week after my original date. It just depends on were we are at in terms of our kinda sorta relationship.
it has gotten so bad that i dont even get jiggy wit myself. I CANT! that only makes it worse! I need a chocolate, sexy man wit a killer smile and a nice ass to hold onto. And the dude i was tellin you about up there ^...hes all that. I think ima call him Mr. Chocolate Marine (hes in the Marine Corp...duh.) Wen went to see the Universoul Circus. When we got back to his house i was so glad he didnt invite me up!! i might have jumped on him if he did. But seriously...i am gonna try to be good. but its hard!! *ahem* i mean difficult..lmao. I am such a horny ass mess. I hope i get some before DC Carnival tho. Wit all that grindin and winin in the streets wit sexy island men i may not be able to contain myself. to make matters worse, i have a toy party to go to this saturday. but the toys im buyin wont be for single sex...nope...MCM better watch out cuz ima put somethin on his ass he aint NEVER had before...
*sigh* 20 days and counting,
pink.
it has gotten so bad that i dont even get jiggy wit myself. I CANT! that only makes it worse! I need a chocolate, sexy man wit a killer smile and a nice ass to hold onto. And the dude i was tellin you about up there ^...hes all that. I think ima call him Mr. Chocolate Marine (hes in the Marine Corp...duh.) Wen went to see the Universoul Circus. When we got back to his house i was so glad he didnt invite me up!! i might have jumped on him if he did. But seriously...i am gonna try to be good. but its hard!! *ahem* i mean difficult..lmao. I am such a horny ass mess. I hope i get some before DC Carnival tho. Wit all that grindin and winin in the streets wit sexy island men i may not be able to contain myself. to make matters worse, i have a toy party to go to this saturday. but the toys im buyin wont be for single sex...nope...MCM better watch out cuz ima put somethin on his ass he aint NEVER had before...
*sigh* 20 days and counting,
pink.
27 May 2008
Suburban Sex Chronicles....maybe?
Look damnit. I am tired of apologizin for postin sporadically. I know there are only 3.5 people who read this, so to you guys...please understand that i just dont freakin feel like blogging all the time!!!
Well, i thought about it and *drumroll please.....* now that im single (you like how i snuck that in on yall hunh, lol) and dating again, i may blog more frequently. When i had a bf i didnt like to blog about our business cuz like a dumbass i linked my blog to facebook and muthfauckaz be mad nosy *note to self: remove your blog link from facebook lol*. Plus I always get more feedback on my horrible date stories or the ones that include raunchy sex stories. i guess those are more interesting ;)
Unfortunatley, until i unlink my blog...ull have to deal with a random post...bwahahahah!
Well, i thought about it and *drumroll please.....* now that im single (you like how i snuck that in on yall hunh, lol) and dating again, i may blog more frequently. When i had a bf i didnt like to blog about our business cuz like a dumbass i linked my blog to facebook and muthfauckaz be mad nosy *note to self: remove your blog link from facebook lol*. Plus I always get more feedback on my horrible date stories or the ones that include raunchy sex stories. i guess those are more interesting ;)
Unfortunatley, until i unlink my blog...ull have to deal with a random post...bwahahahah!
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