26 June 2007

Learnin somethin new er'day

In my new found singleness, I am learnin new things about myself. I have learned that i enjoy dating, sex can be a recreational pastime (lol) and that i am selfish. I AM SELFISH. This i know. I was the only child for 16 years, so i never learned to share. MGD always tells me that i am selfish and i would deny it. I mean i didnt think it was that serious. True, when im wit him i always want to do what i want to do. But thats because he let me. When we are together its always about me. What does Pink wanna do? He would spend his last dime on makin me happy. Ok, ok. Ill admit that i eat that shit up. But what you dont understand is that in my last relationship there was none of that. I wasnt the Princess, or his Queen so to speak. So when me and MGD got semi-serious (i say semi cuz we aint exclusive...we have that understanding), and he started treatin me like that, i was like a kid in a candy store! I didnt know how to act to tell the truth. BUT...and this is a big BUT....i fucked it up.

In April i did somethin to him that i always told him i would never do (and no i wont tell yall nosy muthafuckaz what it was, lol). i decided to tell him yesterday because i felt like we were gettin serious and i couldnt get that deep wit him witout him knowin. He trusted me and i knew how he felt about me. However, i am human and i make mistakes. It really wasnt my intention to hurt him at all. I was bein selfish. Honestly when it happened i didnt think about him before it happened. and i think thats what hurt him the most. Since i have told him, i question myself whether i should have or not. part of me feels like it wasnt fair to break his heart bc of my selfishness. The other part of me feels like if i didnt tell him it would be bc i was scared and i didnt wanna face the music like a grown woman. Thats what made me tell him. I didnt wanna be a pussy about it...anyway, ive decided to say everything to him via this blog so here goes:

MGD (He knows who he is),

I have already apologized. I know that will not mend your broken heart or repair the friendship that i have damaged but i hope that its a start. I really never meant to hurt you, please believe that. You have been more of a friend to me than anyone else in my life. You treated me like i was your girl, even though we werent together, and you have shown me things i never could have seen by myself. With all that said, I was scared. I was scared to be with you, bc of the way that you treated me. I always wondered if i deserved you. I know it doesnt make sense but thats what it is. Even though i am learning not to be selfish and to think of others over myself, i still want to ask your forgiveness. i still need you to be my friend. i still need to be able to talk to you when im goin through somethin and i still want you to come to me with your problems. i know that request in itself is selfish. But i want to earn your trust back. It may never be the same between me and you but if i could just have a piece of what it used to be, that would be fine with me. You were my best friend and the almost-potential love of my life (lol) if i ever got my shit together. What ever i need to do i will...ive already apologized to your mom but if i need to apologize to KiShel, Isha, your dad, your aunts and Adrian i will. Without hesitation. I never said that i loved you because i couldnt. But i did. i do. Nothin will ever change that. Even if we never talk again, i will miss you. we had good times. Just know that everything that i said was the truth. I am changing and i hope you can find it in your heart to wanna get to know the "new" me. im sorry.


25 June 2007

Weekend Wrap-up

I had a reaaaaaaaaaaaaallllly unusually busy weekend. But i had fun tho! Aight lemme break it down:

Friday: We had a company bar-b-que on Andrews and that was nice. There are more sexy ass dudes workin wit me than i thought! lol...KT was there...lookin all scrumptious, but again wit the embarassment, so whatever, i digress. I left there at about 2 and went home. Ahhhh! Nothin like bein home early on a Friday!! I took off my clothes and laid my lazy ass on the couch. Got a phone call from a guy that i met at the Crossroads on Wednesday night, and after about 3 hours of good conversation he said he wanted to see me. No problem. I started gettin ready and by 930 I was at his crib. He came out to the car and the first thing that came to my mind when he opened the door was..."Who the fuck are you?!" Ok. no. He was hideous, abso-fuckin-lutely hideous. There is no other way to describe what was goin on wit his face! And of course he's lookin at me like im the Rooty Tooty Fresh n Fruity platter from IHOP. Oh hell no! I seriously think that he played "Shy Brotha" at the club. Because this definitely aint who asked for my number! He looked like an acne infested face T-Pain. Im sorry, its the truth. And i passed up on a guaranteed-make-ur-toes-curl-sweat-ur-perm-out sex session for this?! How am i gonna get outta this? If i was as rude as people say i am, i would have pulled off. And i didnt, but i sho was tryna figure out how to rush this date along...he wanted to go to the movies...i said no. he wanted to chill and talk at a park....i said no. he asked me if i wanted to chill at his house...i said hell no! Finally, after about 20 minutes, i decided that i was hungry and if i hadda look at his ass he betta be payin for my food while im doin it. So we go to the BLVD and went to Uno's. Why did we run into his friends? So of course he wanted to sit wit them, and i obliged. Anything to not have to look at just him!! His friends were cool, but the restaurant was ghetto as all get out!! Long story short we sat there for like 2 hours and after less than mediocre service we walked out on the check. I know that was uncool, but i hadda bring some excitement to this evening! After that, we headed back to his house, and when i stopped the car for him to get out, he didnt. he just sat there, kinda awkward like. Yall, if he woulda leaned in for the kiss, i woulda slapped him!! But luckily i didnt have to. After about 30 seconds of just sittin there, i told him that he needed to unbuckle his seatbelt and get out the car. I think that hurt his feelins but oh the fuck well! I had a phone call to make... Mr. Good Dick was waiting.

Saturday- I spent the night over MGD's house got up and er'body started gettin ready for Carnival!! His mom made some Bake and Roti and by like 1130 we were off to Georgia Ave. When we got there we walked up from the end of the Road til we met up wit the mud band. We jumped in and had a good ole time! Just partyin, blazin and freakin. At about 4 we had made it to the end and walked back to the car where the food was. I laid my flag and MGD's tshirt on the concrete, laid on my back wit my legs on his lap and in less than 2 seconds i was knocked out! Forgot all about the food and shit lol! He woke me up when it was time to go and i fell asleep in the car. I was sooooo tired! When we got to his crib, I stripped outta er'thing and laid on his bed. I guess that turned him on cuz he jumped on me like he was king of the jungle!! Needless to say i had a rush of energy and we definitely "got on bad" lol (thats island jargon for those of yall who aint know). Then we ate...inhaled a fat one and passed out. I spent the night.

Sunday- Got up from his house around 545 am and went home took a shower and got dressed for Church. It was men's day and my Daddy was in the choir. Of course i rode wit my stepmom, brother and sister and we were late. But the sermon was good...my brother was bad and my sister was gettin on my LAST nerve! We got outta there by like 915 and i went home and changed...went back to MGD's house. No nookie. We watched a movie til he hadda go to work. I went home. He called when he got off around 915. I took a shower and got my work clothes together...i was feenin for the good dick! Oh but dont sleep...i put on his ass! Trust. How do i know? Cuz my West-Indian-Homie-Lover-Friend is washin my clothes as we speak! lol...no bullshit babez.

Anyway...how was yalls weekend?

22 June 2007

Im in luv wit a stripper

mmmmhm mmmmhm mmmmhm yall!

I went to the Classics last night...woooooooo weeee! Them boys was sexxy! This was my first time at a strip club. Me and my coworker went. I used to think that i wouldnt enjoy male strippers. Somethin about them turned me off. Im not sure it was the way they gyrated in the womens faces on tv or what...but i had sworn off ever goin to a male strip club.

Baby! If i woulda knew what i was missin, I woulda been up in there a looooooong time ago! lol. Now there are four men in there that had my ass makin it rain on they asses...

Foreplay- He was walkin around the club about an hour before the show fully dressed. He was maybe 5" 11', Chocolate, with a short cut and precise facial hair and he looks maybe about 27. When he came on stage, he had on a suit and his set was like a old skool joint...he was smooth...not raunchy at all (which was kind of a disappointment, lol) he danced around and finally came outta all his clothes...he has an ass that you'd like to smack...lol.

Playboy- Oooh child! This boy lived up to his name! He is light skinned (which i dont usually go for..but *sighs and stares dreamily* theres just somethin about him) curly hair and a body that should never be covered! When he came out, he started walkin towards me...Gurl! i put that dollar between my teeth and you woulda thought i was a nasty ass 50 yr old woman the way i sorta kinda molested his sexy ass! When he walked over to me, i put my hands on his babyoiled chest and squatted lettin my fingers trail over his red leather pants (they werent tight cuz that woulda been corny) and fall right on his dick. My face was right at penis level and i gave it a good squeeze wit my right hand and stuck the dollar in the waistband of his pants and grabbed a handful of juicy ass in my left. He continued on his way....sexxxy ass!

Devine- Have you seen the dick on him?! BIG. Thats all im gonna say bout that. He was the only one that took off er'thing...although you couldnt see anything cuz he wrapped a towel around his waist...but its just the idea that i could actually walk over to him and snatch it off!! I dreamed about him last night lol...now he wasnt all that fine...he is light too but he has dreads...oh how i live to run my fingers through a mans head wit nice dreads!! I threw some ones at him too. Once, he got finished wit his set he got dressed and came back out. When he walked past me and grabbed me by my waist. "Did you enjoy my set baby?" *panties wet* "Mmmmhm! you sexy as shit!" He said thank you and smiled at me...i cheesed right back at his ass. He continued to mingle wit the other ladies. When he came back through, I was dancin and shakin my ass to the music that was bumpin through the speakers. He grabbed my ass and squeezed it "Gurl! I would fuck the shit outta yo lil sexy ass!" i looked him dead in his face and replied "i fuck back." and i was serious, lol.

I dont know what got into me! Somethin about bein in there had me charged up wit this raw energy. There were other dancers. But those were the ones that were blogworthy..at least in my opinion anyway. When the night was over, me and my coworker started to walk out the door and who stood before me?

Perfect Gentleman
Ladies...when i say this man is beautiful...i mean it. He's like 6'2", smooth chocolate skin, long locs, and that body! He had on jeans and a t-shirt but you could tell what was under there. I asked him his name he told me it was Perfect Gentleman, and then he handed me a Flyer titled Sexy First Sundays. Before i could look at the whole flyer he grabbed my waist, pulled me close and whispered in my ear "Make sure you come...it's a butt-naked affair." Mmmmhm! I inhaled his Jean Paul Gaultier cologne (my fave!) and tried to control myself. He kissed my cheek and i kissed his back...i wanted to squeeze his butt but i didnt...i'll save that for next sunday, lol.
I made it home and right before i got outta my car i took one long look at his ass on my flyer and stuck it in the dashboard display of my car....WHAT?! i need somethin nice to look at when im stuck in traffic!

20 June 2007

Workplace Nookie

In the spirit of my last post, I decided that i would share some other sexual experiences wit you all...I haven't decided if this would be the regular theme of my blog or not...we'll see. Anyway what was i typing? Oh yes! Another sex post. This one wasnt recent...it happened a while ago. I wanna say in like December or something.

So ive always had a fantasy about gettin it on in the workplace. Alot of people have that fantasy, but few actually go through with it. Well i did! So lemme set this up for you...the dude that it happened wit (lets call him KT) i have known for a while. and i always had the BIGGEST crush on him. So one day im at my desk and we are emailin each other back and forth and the conversation turns freaky...i cant remember exactly what was said but i was enough to get me all excited. After a while KT says that no one is in his office and that he wanted me to come over there. So im like "why you want me to come over there...what we gon do?" He comes back wit the normal..."whatever you want....we can just talk" OH HELL NO!! I dont just "talk" not wit you mister! i been wantin to get me some of your tall, brown skin, chinky eyed, long hair havin ass for a while, so theres no way im comin over to an empty ass office to talk to you. i can do that over the phone. i didnt tell him that i just said i would be on my way after my 130 boring ass meetin.

Can i say that the whole time i was at that meetin i was lookin at the clock?! I swear them corny, corporate ass white dudes was soundin like Charlie Browns teacher "Wah-Wah wah wah." I dont even think i said one thing the entire time. i was feelin like Buckwheat when he got his dollar. Just happy! I was thinkin bout him givin it to me all over somebody's desk, in the ergonomic chair, on the window sill...EVERYWHERE!! lol...finally the meeting was over...i hauled my horny ass outta there so quick! I get to his office and we make small talk for a second. but i hadda cut that shit out cuz my coochie was threatnin to jump out my Vickies and throw a major tantrum on the floor (kinda like the bad ass kid in Wal-mart) if i didnt get her some. So i walked over to him and did the first thing i thought of...i grabbed his dick. lol...now before you get all shocked, lemme just say that im not usually that aggresive...but i hadda get the party started somehow, right? Guuuuuurl (or boy, i guess) as soon as i did that his ass lit up...he snatched open my button down (he didnt break no button tho...i kinda wish he would have...that makes it more raw...lol) and was lickin me all over!! He picked me up and put me on his desk, while my legs were wrapped around him and i started to suck on his ears (guys cant resist that...well, most of them). His dick got rock hard. He musta wanted it bad cuz he stopped what he was doin and started reachin in his coat that was hangin on the back of his chair.

-Okay ladies...when the dude is gettin ready to pull out the condom, its like the moment of truth...i prefer Gold Label Men myself. When they pull those out, 9/10 its gonna be a good night. If they pull out a durex or some lame ass Health Clinic condom, you gotta deal wit 1 of 2 things...either his dick is gon be little...or the rubber will be too small...therefore risking the condom poppin which aint the least bit comfortable...so yeah, anyway-

I kinda look away, hopin that when i look back i should see the shiny gold wrapper of a Magnum.
BINGO MUTHAFUCKA!!!! So it was definitely on! I was gon make him work my ass like a 9 to 5 ya dig?! I decide ima get all sexy and bend over his desk so that he has a PRIMO view of the booty. He let out that moan of approval that guys do when they see somethin they like...it sounds like "mmh". Anyway he did that and i was wet, ready and waiting!!

He guided it in and i swear to Starbucks that shit fit like a glove!! He started the slow stroke...
in and out, in and- "Aw damn." That was him. So in my head im like, "Yeaaaaah! I know its good." but then i dont get the "out" that was supposed to follow the last "in". "Whats wrong?" Thats me. "Did it pop?" "Na," he said. "Im done." Whoa whoa WHOA! Did i hear him right? okay wait...dont freak out...this might just be the first one..ima stay cool, this just means he gone have to put in extra work in the second round.

"Okay...so get another one."

Then he kinda gets an attitude...

"I dont have another one...its not like i expect to get some at work eryday!"

*Scrrrrrreeeeeeech!!* First of all muthafucka...watch ya tone before i smack you in the mouth wit this stapler! I couldnt believe he was gettin stank wit me! Embarassed? Yeah...stank? hell no! It aint my fault you a 2 and a half stroke joke! Then i think he came to his senses cuz he apologized. I said it wasnt a big deal and i started puttin my clothes on. You see, in my mind the only thing that fucked him up is the fact that he didnt get a chance to redeem himself...sometimes the first nut shoots quick ya know? Shit happens.

Ive seen him around a couple times and i still think that hes embarassed cuz he doesnt really say anymore than hi and bye to me. But if he asked...i'd give him another chance...and if he screws that up, THEN its a problem.

But can i ask yall somethin....WHY THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME?!

07 June 2007

Mr. Ghana...long post yall

Okay, so i know i havent posted in a while...been busy. and its not like a have millions of people reading this anyway so to my occasional 2 readers: I love you and im sorry.


Friday (June 1) I went out on a date with this fine chocolate tall chocolate sexy chocolate man. He was born here and rasied in Ghana so he had that slight accent which i find sooo sexy. Now ive never dated an african man but i dont descriminate against sexy, okaaay? I had heard that some of them can be kinda clingy and possessive but i wasnt gonna lump him into that category so we decided to go out after work.

I drove up to Silver Spring and parked at his complex. We walked over to where city place mall is. It was such a beautiful night yall...all romantical and shit. We talked about the usual first date stuff (ya know....what kinda music, movies and extracurricular activities you like...yadda yadda yadda). Once we got downtown-

Wait wait! im forgettin stuff...first of all when i parked and got out we hugged...no compliment or nothin. NOT ONE! Not even after i told him he looked nice. But i didnt let that spoil my mood. Maybe he was nervous right? Right, thats what i thought.

Okay so back to when we got downtown. We were tryna figure out which restuarant to go to. We decided on the Rockfish Grill (i think thats what its called). The wait was long ( a lil too long cuz i was hungry as hell!) But once we were seated, service was EXCELLENT!! I ordered the Crabcakes and an amaretto sour...he had some salmon dish and a miller light. We continued to talk and flirt, i batted my eyelashes and whathaveyou...you know. He told me how "very attractive" he thought i was (which baffled me as to why i didnt get a compliment...lol) after another amaretto sour for me...we finish our delicious meal (the bill was 63 dollars which he acted like that was alot. i didnt think so. is it?) we left and began the walk back to his crib.

Now to the good part...or bad...or funny depending on how you look at it...

So we decide to watch a movie. By this time i had already decided i was gon get some cuz i was horny and i wanted it. But of course i didnt jump his bones as soon as we got inside. I maybe a fastass but i didnt wanna give him that impression right off the bat, lol. We laid on the couch and he was rubbin me all over. Not aggressively but kinda like you would rub your girlfriend or boyfriend...kinda lazy like. then he started movin up towards my breasts but he seemed nervous like he thought i was gon ask him to stop. I really think that he thought those 2 drinks had me done, lol. He started playin wit my nipples and that made my pussy almost jump out my panties! so you know im in my head like "Yeah gurl! im bout to get me some!" I continued to play a lil hard to get. so he continues on and before i know it he has unsnapped my jeans, and pushed my panties to the side (im pretty sure he did it wit one hand!) Now im really ready! Coochie region was definitely smokin hot and throbbin (ladies yall know the feelin, lol) cuz thats the player move...kinda like in that movie wit Nick Cannon and C. Milian when the dad was teachin him how to open the condom in a smooth, cool manner. lol!

He gets on wit the finger action (da bomb!!) and my stuff was so wet you could wring it out! I couldnt take it anymore and i insisted that we get to the main event. Boy was i ready!! I couldnt wait to get that chocolate mandingo you -know-what inside me (wrapped in plastic of course). He started peelin the clothes off of himself to reveal the body of an ancient god! It was smooth and muscular...and slim just how i like em! He was cut like a college basketball player and i couldnt wait to slam dunk his ass!!

THEN...he took off his pants. Ummmmmm...yeah, about that. Im pretty sure i had the look of confusion. Where is it?! Where is the big juicy chocolate stick i was sure i was gonna get? Okay dont get me wrong. It wasnt minute...it was about 7 inches but it was slim...just like the rest of him. And when your expectin Long, Strong, Donkey Kong...a ding-a-ling just doesnt cut it. But i had hope (or i was just desperate) and i wasnt gonna give up witout so much as a sample.

We missionaried...doggystyled...cowgirled...reverse cowgirled and one leg on the shouldered for about a good hour...and even though my shit was like a faucet...when you got rubber, spermicide, and a nigga wit a mediocre stroke rubbin against your woman fruit, it gets a lil dry. I was done. too through and disappointed wit the situation. He wasnt terrible but i had built up the dick in my mind and he just didnt live up to it...to cap the night off, i gave him some head cuz he was still all over me and i wasnt bout to continue fuckin him cuz i was sure my walls were scuffed. He was justa shiverin and shakin as i licked the tip (wrapped in grape plastic now) and deepthroated (it wasnt that hard to do...lol) but he still didnt cum! Alright Buddy! Im definitely done now...i wasnt gonna waste my time...it was close to 2 o clock and my pocket rockets' (a lil pink vibrator...ask about it!) bedtime was 3...had to hurry home! So he walked me to my car...kissed my cheek and watch me peel off...

Do i have to tell yall that we will not be seein each other again?