Death of a Salesman Player

What the hell is wrong witchall?! Yall had the nerve to halfway cuss me out bout not bloggin and then yall raggely asses couldnt even comment on a sistas post?! Yall know yall wrong right? *givin the side eye to Tima, Nasha, Candy, Vixen, Dave, and whoever else I cant remember that usually comments on here*

It's OBVIOUS that my only REAL blog friends are TM and Toya, thanks ladies.

LOL...now that I'm done with that, I say we get to todays post. Yesterday, I mentioned that technology would be the end of the player and I'm right. Think about it. As technology advances, there are less ways to lie, and more ways to get caught up.

Back in the day, there were no cell phones so you couldnt really keep tabs on anyone. Pagers worked to the advantage of players bc they could assign codes to their different chix. Plus, with a pager they could call you at their convenience. Now we have the ability to IM, Text, Call, Voicemail, Snailmail lol...there are all different kinds of ways to catch a player. Not to mention Facebook...oh lord, Facebook could be the destruction of a whole damned relationship! Everybody knows somebody on Facebook. They know when you break up, make up, they know when your relationship is complicated or totally nonexistent....to a player, facebook is prolly the devil. Just the pictures alone will catch a player up on Facebook. Once people start taggin the pix, its a wrap.

Technology is how I caught my douchebag of an ex boyfriend creep creepin. I logged into his Tmobile account and accessed his tmail email account and BAM! information overload...I got the screen name and password to Blackplanet, SinglesMeet, AdultFriendFinder, and...wait for it.... HORNY MATCHES.COM!!! lmao...Yes, this ho has a hornymatches profile. AInt that just nasty? He sexin random chix off the innernets? Which aint make me do difference bc we broke up in June but I stopped kcufing him in February (which has nothin to do with why he cheated bc I found out (via his calendar on his sidekick) that he had been messin wit his new girlfriend since November of last year...anyway, back to waht i was sayin...) plus i BEEN tested and screen for STD's when all the Cancer ish happened, but maybe i should send him a lil text suggestin that he do that, no? On top of all the screen names to his lil nasty pages, i saw the emails that him and his new chick had been sendin back and forth about how they loved each other and missed each other, woo woo whatever *stickin my finger down my throat*. So upon further inspection, I got her work/home address, work/home/cell number, work/personal email and last but not least, her facebook account*. Yes, all that...

So you see how technology can get a nagga found out? Mhmmmm. And I dont play either, cuz just like Anthony Anderson said in Two Can Play That Game, "The CIA...aint got SHIT on a woman wit a plan..."

Remember dat,

pink.

- *Not that I would do anything with it, cuz my name aint Jasmine Sullivan, I'm too grown and classy for mess like that. But I'm sure that him knowin that I have all that info made it a lil hard to sleep the first couple weeks after we broke up...

=)

I guess I will be elaborating...

Can i just tell yall that i think i seen the sexiest dude on blogger today...well idk how sexy he REALLY was bc it was just a side shot of his face but damnit if his sideburns didnt look delicious!

After rereading my post and then reading your comments i feel the need to go into more detail about my past relationship. I sounded like I was in one of those Baby Boy ghetto ass relationships and it really wasn't like that. The situations that were mentioned in my last post sounded a lil hoodrattish i guess. I think the reason that I was so in love with him is because I saw how he treated his family. He has a very big family and i dont and i always wanted to be a part of somethin like that. He worked very hard. He was always workin. He does road construction o he works long hours and he also hustled on the side (hence the arrests)...to help his grandmother pay the mortgage and both of their car notes. He was the reason that i started wrkin two jobs. He made me want to be better...somewhere along the line i guess he found what he as lookin for in someone else. I dont really think that i am mad at him...i am mad at how he handled it. I know that but every once in a while i get in my feelings about the situation thats all.

Tima and Nasha asked how come I was still lonely even though we were together. He just wasnt affectionate. I need affection and compliments bc thats the way that I am. I need someone to want to cuddle and chill. That wasnt him...it was always about everyone else. His friends and his family and obviously this other chick were more important. But he was first on my list. But whatever, while my heart is broken, im glad that its over. It was a long time comin and a damned valuable life lesson. Now i know to never make someone a priortiy when you are only an option.

So after i reread that post i decided to delete Jamie Ashtonn Barksdale from my life completely. No phone calls...no plans to hang out. nothing. I am completely washing my hands of him. Also, please dont mistake my rant yesterday for angry black woman syndrome/niggaz aint shit speak. You'll never hear that come from my mouth. There is nothin sexier to me than a black man. I'm just waiting for the right one to come along.

I'm feeling alot better today!

pink.

Why me?! Why not him?

Yeah...i know...its late and I'm just now blogging. I had work to do. Anyway, I wouldnt say that I'm in a foul mood, i guess im just confused but this will be a Tell Em Why You Mad THursdays of sorts. You see, in June of this year, i found out that my boyfriend of 7 years had another girlfriend. No, he wasnt man enough to tell me...i found out...by checkin his email. He had been sending her emails talking about how much he loved her and all this other crap. After 7 years of me thinkin it was so hard to let him go, it was the easiest thing to do that Friday night for me. I didnt cry, i just called him up, told him I knew, and hung up the phone. I called my homegirl and we went to Fridays that night. It just seemed so easy to walk away and I have no idea why. After talking to this person everyday for 7 years you'd think there would be some kind of drama involved. But there wasnt. This was the man that i KNEW that I would marry. I had picked out our kids names and everything. If you would have told me that he would have another girlfriend I would have laughed bc it wasnt possible and he would never do that. Boy was I wrong. See, I never put it past him to cheat on me. And i'm pretty sure that he did during the course of our relationship. But if you knew him you would just never imagine him having another girlfriend. i dont know if you understand what im saying but its just that way. I had always been there for him whenever he needed me. I was the one that drove in the snow at 2 am to get him from the club bc he was too drunk to drive...i was the one who went to pick him up from the police station every time he was arrested. And just recently before we broke up i was the one that paid his 350 dollar phone bill...the bill that he had been talkin to his other lil girlfriend on. If thats supposed to be his girl then why didnt she pay it?!

I guess what I'm getting at is that I dont understand why this motherfucker gets to be happy in his new relationship and im the one thats lonely. Why the fuck am i getting the short end of the stick when he cheated on me?! I'm doin shit for him when I'm goin through all this shit with that whole cancer thing and his bitch ass was spending time with her?! Why am i not in a happy, sappy , cute, cuddly, holdin hands in public kind of relationship? Why cant he be lonely? how come i couldnt have got the hint long before he had a chance to break my damn heart? Believe me, if i did, I would have snatched his out his chest and stomped that bitch wit my favorite steve madden pumps. and then smushed it in the ground like I was puttin out a cigarette. Do i sound angry? good...fuck it i am pissed.

And dont give me that shit about how he'll get his bc i dont wanna hear it. I want him to feel it now. I want some shit so fucked up to happen in his relationship that he thinks back to how good he had it. And when it does, i do NOT want to him to come whinin to me bc he chose where he wanted to be. Let that girl (i wanted to type bitch, just so you know) deal with it bc im finally free from a relationship that i shouldve let go of a long time ago.

I know i prolly sound bitter...but this is the result of holding all of this inside. I try not to talk about it to my friends bc they only rehash feelings that i wish would just go away. I just want to be happy with someone yall. Its hard to explain the way that I am bc you dont know me. I am happy with myself but i was lonely before we broke up. I was always lonely with him. I just want someone that appreciates me...and i can appreciate them.

maybe ill elaborate another time. maybe not.

pink.

Ow! Ow!

just bc im sexxay!!

Have a good day!!

pink.

Planning the Company Christmas Party...and I NEED A DATE!!

Hello everybody!! Thank you for your questions. I had fun answering them and I'm sure alot of you didnt think I would be so honest but I dont know yall! lmao...also, it brought out one lurker...please everyone give a warm welcome to Jaycee!! *waits while everyone claps* Maybe I'll do another post like that in the future, what yall think?

Anyway...so I'm planning the company Christmas party. I love Company parties and dread them at the same time bc I always wait til the last minute to get my dress and stuff. I'll have an idea in my head about how i wanna look, and then all of a sudden its the week before the party and i end up wearing somehting else. But i plan to get started early this year...however I dont know what color to wear, what style dress to get or even where to get it from. I dont want to wear black bc all the women who think they are fat (which is majority of the company) are gonna be wearing black. I need to stand out in the sea of 300 people. My fave color is hot pink but is that appropriate? I also like green, turquoise, orange, gold, coral and brown...but are those t0o bright? Lawd please just give me a sign! I'm lost! lol.

And...I need a freakin date. I have a little more than 2 months to meet someone that I like enough to let accompany me to this here event. The only problem is, 2 months isnt a long time to get to know someone. I mean, what if he gets drunk and embarrasses the hell outta me?! I dont wanna have to beat no ones ass in front of my co workers yall. Where am i gonna meet this man thats tall dark and handsome and looks sexy in a suit?! oh god the pressure *holding my head*...idk yall. Ima have to put my DC Bloggin Homegirls (that means you..Candy, Tima, Nasha, and TM) on Operation: Find Pink a Christmas Party Date/Future Husband...otherwise known from here on as Operation: FPACPD/FH...well idk if thats simple enough but yall know what im talkin bout. Yeah, I'm serious. Yall need to get to work...I'll be asking for status every Friday until the party...someone please come through...cousins, uncles, brothers and friends of families are fine...but i would prefer someone without a criminal record...kay?

i need a drink. =/

pink.

Ask Me Anything Answers!!!

Aight...because I cant wait...I am actually answering these on Friday lol. You all had good questions!! Some of them would probably make some people want to lie...bc they maybe uncomfortable but im gonna tell you the TRUTH!!! lol...

Here goes:

1. I live my life not having any regrets and treating all situations as learning experiences...but if i had to choose one thing to change from my past, it would have been to not hold on to my ex boyfriend for 7 years when I knew it was bullshit.

2. If I had to change one thing about myself it would be to not be such a bitch. I can really be a BIG bitch when i am pushed to that point...oh and not to hold grudges...thats two isnt it? lol

3. I dont dislike anyone enough to be able to think of a specific person...i just ignore them.

4. About goin to see mirrors with Super Dave...I got really busy with tryin to get my life in line for 09 lol that I really didnt think about it. And i heard that it wasnt that good. I thought i texted you that tho?

5. I went to college of southern maryland for a semester...didnt work out. I wasnt into it...but I'm going back in January.

6. I have 3 tattoos...I have my name on my shoulder, a butterfly on my hip and my exes name on my ankle.

7. My favorite food is Goat Roti...its a Trini thing.

8. Yes, Candy...I've had anal sex lmao! It's aight...I don't prefer it tho.

9. I would like to live somewhere dry and hot. Like Vegas or Arizona...wait i take that back...i like the beach too...maybe Cali.

10. 15 is my sex partner number. I think I did majority of them between 18 and 20. but whats weird is that only 3 of them were a regular thing. The rest of them were FUCKnCHUCKS...like I would do them and never call again lol.

11. I dont think I would kill someone even if i knew I would get away with it. I think I would be too scared. But then again maybe I could cuz I dont really have a conscience about SERIOUS stuff...lol thats weird hunh?

12. I've fantasized about one of my friends boyfriends. But i think they wanted to have a threesome, they just never asked (they were real kinky like that). He would walk around wit his shirt off all the time and he had a NICE body...and she would always talk about how he was in bed. But i would never do it...and yes, I've had the opportunity.

13. I dont have a favorite song. I have songs that apply to something that I am going through at the time and those songs are my fave for a while...this summer it was Take A Bow by Rihanna...it came out as soon as I found out my boyfriend had another girlfriend =/

14. The traits that I look for in a significant other are: honesty, loyalty and the ability to be affectionate. Those are the 3 biggest. I also want someone that is funny, outgoing and spontaneous. Also someone that I respect as a man...i cant do the weak dude thing. I am too strong willed and stubborn for that. I shouldnt be able to run all over you.

15. What do I do for fun? hmmmm...lol lets see here. I'm pretty chill but thats bc I work two jobs and I'm usually tired. I like to dance but im not really a club goer...i'll go every once in a while. I guess bc I'm single now, I do alot of girls nights wit my homegirls. I like the movies and I like to go out to eat. A perfect day with myself would be to buy like 4 books and read them all day lol...i know, im a nerd! I also like going to Sports Bars during football season...i LOVE football. Oh! and Strip clubs too!

16. I have never done anything sexually that I consider degrading. If I'm not comfortable doing it then I dont. But for me, letting a man cum in your face is NOT cool. Thats just me tho...i have friends who can get with that. I dont...and never have.

17. I have never slept with a friends boyfriend or ex. I have slept with a guy that I was datings friend. It got real ugly lol. Me and my boyfriend were on a break and I called the dude over...my ex ended up showing up at my apartment while the guy was still there...but he didnt get in. I was so scared! lol...eventually I told my guy friend and he was really mad at me but he got over it and we are friends now. I would NEVER do that again. It was very hurtful =(

18. Nope. Never been with a girl. I flirt with anyboy who flirts with me tho. Candy used to say I was Gay for play. I'm open to almost anything but I just never have. I could never be in a relationship with another girl tho. too emotional and messy.

And there you have it! I hope I'm not too boring lmao!!

pink.

Bloggers Block

What it do shawdiiz?! I think I have bloggers block yall. I just cant get my self together to really blog about anything. Candy thinks I'm fuckstrated (good one Candy ima be usin that...mmmk? thx.) but i dont know if thats what it is. Maybe it is tho. If so, I need to just get the hell over it bc it wont be happenin anytime soon. YOu know, I havent actually decided if I was celibate or not. I mean, yeah, I'm not having sex right now...but thats not to say that I wont decide to next week or somethin. Maybe I should declare myself celibate, hell I probably already am by default lol...like is there a rule that says that if you haven't done it in x amount of months then you are? Well if its over 4 months then I joined the club without even knowing it!

Funny thing is...i dont really think I even care. I mean, I could relieve my fuckstration if I wanted to, thus prolly endin my bloggers block...but meh...i just dont really feel like it, ya know? What's weird about that is that sex has always been very important to me. I write about it (not here) and i like to talk about it and i used to do it all the time...but maybe that was back when i had a bf. OMG!! do you guys think I'm experiencing some kind of trauma as a result of the way me and my 7 year bf broke up?!

Nah....his sex wasnt that good to make me go off the deep end. *sigh*

I really dont think that dick deprivation is a rason for my bloggers block...i think my life has just been pretty mundane thats all. The randomness that usually plagues my mind has taken a vacation so I have nothin to offer you guys. Oh! I could blog about my Cowboys and how they are gonna BEAST!! this season but I have alot of chick readers, and that may not tickle yall's fancy like that. I think that I have a date comin up soon tho...maybe thatll make for good bloggin....idk.

whta do yall want from me?!?!?!?!

pink.

Dreams and such

Hello all! I'm feeling better today. Yesterday I was in such a grumpy mood...tsk tsk. I apologize, thats not usually like me. Anyway, I did NOT sleep well last night. Wanna know why? Because of my damned dream last night. I fell asleep watchin Devil Wears Prada and next thing i know, I'm dreaming that I'm at the airport on my way to Paris. Then I kept waking up and hitting the snooze button thinkin that i was jet lagged, lol. Idk what my problem was. I also missed my connection flight on the way home or something so i had to stay in some other city. To waste time I started shopping and almost missed my standby flight! When i woke up, I looked at my clock and was convinced that it wasnt the right time bc the time is different in Europe! I'm crazy, I know.

Nevertheless, I finally got up and made it to work by 730. Even though alot of details are fuzzy, I'm surprised that I remembered what I dreamt about. Usually, when I wake up my dream floats from my mind and I cant bring it back at all. It seemed so real that I'm pretty sure I was talking in my sleep. I know that I do it bc I can hear myself lol. Have you ever heard the phone ringin in your sleep and then put your hand to your ear and say "hello?", only to realize that you didnt actually pick it up? Or think that youre having a two way conversation with someone until you wake up and realize that it was a song on the radio? lol...oh. does that only happen to me? =/

Whats one of the strangest dreams youve had? Or somethings that happen when you're sleep?

I raelly wanna know!

pink

It's Been A Long Time...

I shouldna left you...with out a dope...sike lemme stop! Hello all...im baaaaack!! With an explanation of course. Lets see....Wednesday thru Sunday I was sick. I had an earache and a fever and since i didnt come to work and i dont have the innernets at home...i didnt post. Monday I had surgery and was on Percocets, so my post wouldnt have even been coherent if i HAD posted. Tuesday, I was still on the percs...smh. So here we are at Wednesday!!!

Why did I have surgery you ask? Well back in May I had a molar pregnancy which is baisically like a tumor (if you really wanna know exactly what it is then look it up...but i dont feel like givin a detailed explanation and i know you dont feel like reading one...) in your uterus. I had a D&C performed and my GYN thought they had removed the tissue...but negative. When they found out that they hadnt they sent me over to Washington Cancer Institute (no...i dont have cancer) and i began chemotherapy treatments once a week. Even though i dont have cancer, since all of the tissue was not removed they treat it like cancer by administering chemotherapy. if you know anything about chemo then you know that it is used to kill off cells that are growing rapidly than normal. Anyway, two weeks ago, my GYN Oncologist (fancy name, hunh?) said that i wasnt responding as well as he would like to the therapy so they were gonna switch to a more aggressive one. Instead of intramuscular, this one is givin intravenously. However, it is much to strong a drug to just be pumpin through the veins in your arm...so I had surgery on Monday so that they could place a MediPort into my chest and they would inject the chemo through there every OTHER week now. So that is whats going on with me. No, i am not bald headed...I havent even lost hair. I still weigh my usual 164.5 pounds...and i donnt be throwin up and stuff. And if i didnt tell you then you would never even know...hell, i been receivin treatment for about 6 weeks and the people at my job are just now finding out. My doctor says everything should be over and done with in about 3/4 weeks...so im praying for that. And im STILL goin to Vegas!! How you like me now?! lmao...

Any other questions you would like to know the answers to?

pink.

What Am I Here For?

I know, I know...I am in rare form posting twice on a Monday. But I am in inner turmoil as to what I am supposed to be doing with myself. If you know anything about signs then you know that Pisces are the most creative. I am a pisces in case you didnt know. I feel stifled creatively in my job but i have no idea what I want to do. This is also a trait of the Pisces...indecisveness. I like so many things...music, movies, people, arts and crafts...everything. I used to want to be an actress but I'm not willing to be someone's roommate in LA/NY, waitressing until im 30 while I wait for my big break.

I think thats the reason why I haven't started my own company or written the book that i was talkin about bc im scared of failure. Scared I wont be successful or somethin.

-By the way, this is extremely hard for me to admit. I dont like to admit that I am scared to do anything. I dont even know if this blog is gonna make it to being posted...i guess we'll see =/-

I need to make a decision though because I'm tired of doin this dumbass finance/procurement job. Its runnin me ragged and its not fun. Its only makin the ends meet....

excuse me while i go post my resume on monster,

pink.

I am soooooo fuckin irritated right now!!! Have you ever had someone in your life that you know you need to cut out? Ugh...fuck it. Im too mad to even blog about this shit right now.

*deep breaths*

I had to eat a rice krispy treat to calm me down. Oh and Happy Friday!! Anyway, im thinkin about writing a book. i started one back in high school but i never finished it bc that shit is hard! lol...It involves alot of research on the background of your characters and the setting of the book (well if your gonna write a good book you do). On top of that you have to try and get it published, or publish it your self. you need an editor and all kinds of other shit. Shit that i dont feel like i would actually feel like doing. I cant remember what my book was about really but it was going in the direction of an urban romance novel...something like Zane, or Eric Jerome Dickey would write. I would let my friends read samples of what i had completed and they loved it...i even wrote this threesome sex scene that so off the chain it seemed real! Everyone that had read it was talkin about it. I even had the guys readin it...lol. The thing is, I dont know where it is. I took it to my cousins house for her to read and the bitch said she lost it. Ever since then, I havent had the energy or the creativity to write a new one. Another thing about writing a book is that whole capitalization/punctuation thing. if you havent noticed....i dont do that when im typing. I dont have time bc most of the time im blogging while my boss' back is turned.

Anyway, since ive been thinkin about doing this i dont wanna write just another FLYY GIRL or COLDEST WINTER EVER. I was thinkin somethin about an urban thriller. what do you think? would you read somethin like that? it has to have sex in it tho...bc i love to write about sex! am i a perv? Never mind well talk about that later lol.

At first i thought this was just a fleeting thought. I mean, i havent written anything of the sort in like 2 years. and i need to get back in the groove. Idk yall...i really have to think about this....please let me know what yall think too.

plz-n-thx!

pink.

101 Things about me:



1. i hate when people speak in 3rd person. hate it.

2. i love watchin infomercials...especially the kind about the juicer or flat iron ones.

3. ive never jumped off of a diving board.

4. i wikipedia random things like serial killers and porn stars when im bored.

5. i wanted to be an actress when i grew up.

6. im scared of the people in the costumes at amusement parks.

7. i cant eat ketchup on my fries...it taste like v8 juice. i hate v8.

8. i dont really like to kiss. i used to.

9. i dont like sitting next to grown people in the back seat of a car. i hyperventilate.

10. i dont mind sitting next to kids in the back seat tho.

11. i read blogs and gossip sites on a time schedule, once in the morning and then i check for updates at noon.

12. im very sarcastic, but i hate sarcastic people.

13. im 16 years older than my sister and 20 years older than my brother.

14. i never babysit them.

15. my favorite cartoon character is Jessica Rabbit

16. ive been employed since i was 10.

17. my fave color is pink.

18. i hated pink when i was little.

19. ive never eatin chitlins.

20. ive had lima beans once.

21. licorice jelly beans are my fave.

22. i love banana anything

23. my longest relationship was 7 years.

24. i WILL NOT wear costume jewelery.

25. ive worn the same bamboo earrings, nefertiti necklace, and 2 rings everyday since christmas. EVERY DAY.

26. i always wear my rings on the same fingers. i never switch them.

27. i have 3 tattoos

28. i have 5 piercings.

29. i can fall asleep in the shower.

30. i hum when scary movie previews are on tv.

31. i dont have a most embarrassing moment.

32. thats bc nothin really embarrasses me.

33. i dont really care for chocolate.

34. i used to collect VIBE magazine.

35. i have the first ever issue and the issue with Tupac on the cover.

36. Tupac has been my favorite rapper since i was like 10 (is that appropriate?! lol)

37. i also used to collect holiday barbies.

38. my most expensive one was 600 dollars.

39. i dont know what i did with it :/

40. i have a wedding portfolio.

41. i started it in 9th grade.

42. yes, its been updated since then.

43. i havent cried at a funeral since i was 16.

44. when i look around and see everyone else crying i feel bad and i want to cry, but i cant.

45. i like rainstorms

46. i think that i broke my opinky toe in 8th grade.

47. i never told my parents.

48. ive been punched in the face by a girl i didnt really know for no reason.

49. everytime i think about that i crack up laughin.

50. everyone called the girl Nasty Cassie

51. ive only been drunk once.

52. i love sunflower seeds.

53. i eat them until they make my tongue raw.

54. i cant eat right after i brush my teeth.

55. i cant brush my teeth right after i eat.

56. i started writing a book in 9th grade.

57. i lost it and never started another one.

58. it makes me mad when people talk to me when im reading a book

59. i have more than 10 tickets.

60. none of them are speeding tickets.

61. all of them are parking tickets.

62. i dont claim a city or state.

63. Thats bc im not sure where im from...i spent half of my life in germany and the other half in DC, MD, or VA.

64. and none of my family is from here.

65. where am i from? can you tell me?

66. i should wear glasses.

67. i dont.

68. im a facebook junkie.

69. i randomly quote movies...even when it doesnt apply to the situation.

70. i got timbalands autograph on a dollar bill once.

71. my diabetic grandfather spent it on a krispy kreme donut.

72. i hate the automated service when you call banks and stuff

73. i love love love ihop breakfast

73. id rather be really hot that really cold

74. i never use the ac in my car

75. i only watch 3 shows on tv...greys anatomy, americas next best dance crew, and real world

76. my favorite fruit is kiwi.

77. i cant remember the last time i ate it.

78. i hate to try stuff on in dressing rooms.

79. i dont mind being naked in front of strangers.

80. i always take my shoes off at work

81. one time, my mom came home early when i had my boyfriend over and when she asked if i had anyone is the house i said no.

82. she kept grillin me and i got so nervous i passed out.

83. she didnt help me up...she walked away.

84. i work around 75 hours a week.

85. i frequently violate the dress code at work...

86. by wearing flip flops

87. it makes me feel rebellious.

88. i hate people who wear crocs

89. my cousin wears them lol

90. i cheat when i play memory with my little sister

91. i laugh when she gets spanked

92. one time, she was bein so bad my father pulled over on the beltway and beat her.

93. me and my little brother laughed.

94. i sing to random people at stoplights.

95. ive been caught haing sex by police more than 10 times.

96. public speaking doesnt make me nervous

97. i won tickets to the Back to School jam off the radio in 9th grade.

98. i didnt go.

99. my cars name is kisha

100. thats also my club name.

101. i told one of the janitors where i work that my name was kisha and now he always shouts it when he sees me.

Finally! finished...Diva was right...this was hard!

A lil somethin about me

Alright...as i sit here devourin my BK #7 value meal, i am thinkin about what it is that you all wanna know about me. On one hand im like "they dont need to know erything bout me!" but then if i wasnt ready to be open and honest why the hell did i sign up to write a blog...hmm? Plus...yall dont know me...so who in sam hell cares what yall think...no offense. Anyway here goes....

1. I am 21 yrs old(3.10.86)
2. I have had the same boyfriend since i was in 10th grade (thats about 6 yrs for those of yall too tired to do the math). I will name him "Pookie" for you guys. Pookie and I are goin through some things right now...so im sure that i will have lots to write about him...you all are more than welcome to comment.
3. I have a fulltime job as a contractor at the Pentagon...most of my coworkers get on my nerves...im sure i will be writin about them too...dont worry, I will fill you in on their nicknames, as i am sure to have interesting ones for them.
4. I have NO idea what i want to do with my life yet.
5. I am sooooooooooooooo addicted to celeb-gossip. I mean ridiculously addicted. I read http://www.concreteloop.com everyday...sometimes hourly just to check on updates...i should go to rehab or somethin...
6. I have a mean/bitchy side....hopefully you guys won't see that side of me...
7. Oh yeah...and they call me PiNK cuz it describes me...fun, sexy, sassy, cute and its my favorite color...DUH!!

I cannot think of anything else to tell...I'm sure it will all come out eventually.