Did you miss me?!

Ok...wait. Please dont cuss me out. I have been ding some internal reflecting. I couldnt blog...i just didnt have it in me. But alot has happened since my last post. Remember the dude that stood me up for dinner at the Cheesecake Factory? I think that we were callin him ReMet...but i have to think of another name bc i dont like that one....*thinkin*...oh bother...i dont know right now. Anyway, we have been talkin and *sigh* I really like him. Of course we had to discuss why he hadnt been callin me and why he had been blowin me off. He said that had lost his job and that he was embarrassed. He didnt know what to say to me so he just didnt call. Which i believe, but i dont agree with. I know that everyone goes through their hard times and im not even the type of girl to be on no shit like that. As long as he is lookin and trying then im ok. We talked about that and he have been speakin everyday for the most part. He says that he is still kinda cautious about me, bc I blew him off before (he also said that because of me, we arent in a relationship now). and I can understand that. Thats why I am planning a nice romantic evening for just me and him on Friday. I wanted to do it on NYE bc thats when we met last year (i thought that weould be cute, lol) but he already has plans and so do i...so Friday it is.

I'm soooo excited! I reserved a room at the Savoy Suites on Wisconsin Ave (for all my DC bloggers) and it has a view overlookin the city. Ima get some Champagne, maybe some strawberries...then im gonna bathe him...oooohwee!! lol...give him a nice loooong massage...you know, cater to my (almost) man and shit lmao! and let him know that i am serious and that i wouldnt try to break his heart. I am going to pick out my lingerie (par of this is for him..the other part is for me. Ive never done somethin like this for anyone and I reallllly reallly want to.)

I hope this goes well and my effort is not for nothing. I dont think it will be though..and i WILL give yall an update. By the way...pix from the xmas party...i will try to post those tonight...as soon as i find my USB cable.

I hope yall had a good Christmas!

pink.

Dinner wit the Ex

Well well...whats there to tell?

NOTHIN.

Why? Bc he never called or texted or nothin. And after his actions and a good conversation with iCandy about it, Im not worried about a friendship with him. It's obvious that he has not changed. I dealt with this type of behavior in the relationship...but the beauty of being single is that i dont have to put up wit that shit anymore..ya dig?

-I just got a text from him saying that something came up...but you knew that something came up last night. you should have said that then. Sorry Charlie...but youre a day late and a dollar short.-
Now if he wants to be friends, great. But that means that he is going to have to put in extra work and i cant say whether i will meet him halfway; it all just depends on which way the wind blows =)

I am very happy with myself. I didnt get worked up or anything. He's not worth it. When i didnt hear from him by 5, I went and got a niiiiice loooong luxuriooooous pedicure. And then I got a phone call from a guy on match.com. We had some cool conversation. I checked out his pick...he aiiiight. The only thing is that he lives in Dumfries,VA. Ummm i know i wanna be in love and all, but ion know if love gon take me that far, right? lmao...plus,for real for real...what's love got to do with it? lol.

After I chatted with him for awhile, I decided to give this guy a call. DOnt ask me why...I just felt like I should. The last time we talked was when he stood me up and I just wanted to know what really happened.

He said that when we "re-met" that he was already involved with someone and he wanted to talk to me but he knew it wasnt fair. So he stopped callin (which is what i did to him earlier in the year). He said that they broke up a couple weeks ago but that he knew he couldnt just call me up and say, "hey! im back!" so he just didnt call.

Anyway, we are both single now. So we'll see what happens. He wants to see me tonight. I have a date with Island Breeze on Thursday and Mr. 20 wants me to come over on Friday. Then I have my party Saturday, so I'll be pretty occupied. Sunday Ima just relax...

I'll catch up wit yall!

Oh yeah! Amber...Red Robin is the bomb dot com...you need to go lol

pink.

Am I Your Girlfriend?

OK...this post aint about me. Why? Because I have nothin to tell...except that Jhony's been callin but for some reason I dont feel like talkin to him..maybe I'll call back today. Who knows? I'm real finnicky like that. Anyways...

So my homegirl has been dating this guy since April. Thats 6 months, in case you couldnt do the math. Now, the are just dating. There is no title or anything. But they have been dating exclusively for these 6 months. Are you with me? Ok, good.

So after 6 months of dating...exclusively...she sends him a text asking the question..."am I your girlfriend." No response. That was Sunday night. Monday, at around 6 pm he calls her and says that he had left his phone over his mans house and that he just got it back...whats up? she asked him if he got her text and he says no. So they finally get into the conversation of wether they are actually together and he says," well, i dont want a girlfriend right now. I'm still broken up over my last two relationships."

TIRE.SCREECH...

what?! What do you mean that you are still broken up over your last two relationships?! What the hell did you think this six months was?!

Those were her thoughts and I totally agree. How do you date someone EXCLUSIVELY for six months and not want a girlfriend? Isnt that like having one just without the title? I dont get it. I think that exgirlfriend thing was a cop out. I dont think that's what it is at all. I just think that he wants to do whatever he wants to do and he wants to keep kcufing her.

So she calls me crying and all upset. Shes confused as to why he would string her along and she feels like shes wasted her time on him. But the thing is, is that she REALLY likes him. My advice to her was to do what she thought was best. because there is no compromise in this situation. Either she sticks around until he's ready for a relationship or she leaves him alone. either way shes not getting what she wants right now.

What do you think? Is he ridiculous? Is she trippin? Is 6 months too long or not long enough? What would you do?

Tell me!

pink.

Death of a Salesman Player

What the hell is wrong witchall?! Yall had the nerve to halfway cuss me out bout not bloggin and then yall raggely asses couldnt even comment on a sistas post?! Yall know yall wrong right? *givin the side eye to Tima, Nasha, Candy, Vixen, Dave, and whoever else I cant remember that usually comments on here*

It's OBVIOUS that my only REAL blog friends are TM and Toya, thanks ladies.

LOL...now that I'm done with that, I say we get to todays post. Yesterday, I mentioned that technology would be the end of the player and I'm right. Think about it. As technology advances, there are less ways to lie, and more ways to get caught up.

Back in the day, there were no cell phones so you couldnt really keep tabs on anyone. Pagers worked to the advantage of players bc they could assign codes to their different chix. Plus, with a pager they could call you at their convenience. Now we have the ability to IM, Text, Call, Voicemail, Snailmail lol...there are all different kinds of ways to catch a player. Not to mention Facebook...oh lord, Facebook could be the destruction of a whole damned relationship! Everybody knows somebody on Facebook. They know when you break up, make up, they know when your relationship is complicated or totally nonexistent....to a player, facebook is prolly the devil. Just the pictures alone will catch a player up on Facebook. Once people start taggin the pix, its a wrap.

Technology is how I caught my douchebag of an ex boyfriend creep creepin. I logged into his Tmobile account and accessed his tmail email account and BAM! information overload...I got the screen name and password to Blackplanet, SinglesMeet, AdultFriendFinder, and...wait for it.... HORNY MATCHES.COM!!! lmao...Yes, this ho has a hornymatches profile. AInt that just nasty? He sexin random chix off the innernets? Which aint make me do difference bc we broke up in June but I stopped kcufing him in February (which has nothin to do with why he cheated bc I found out (via his calendar on his sidekick) that he had been messin wit his new girlfriend since November of last year...anyway, back to waht i was sayin...) plus i BEEN tested and screen for STD's when all the Cancer ish happened, but maybe i should send him a lil text suggestin that he do that, no? On top of all the screen names to his lil nasty pages, i saw the emails that him and his new chick had been sendin back and forth about how they loved each other and missed each other, woo woo whatever *stickin my finger down my throat*. So upon further inspection, I got her work/home address, work/home/cell number, work/personal email and last but not least, her facebook account*. Yes, all that...

So you see how technology can get a nagga found out? Mhmmmm. And I dont play either, cuz just like Anthony Anderson said in Two Can Play That Game, "The CIA...aint got SHIT on a woman wit a plan..."

Remember dat,

pink.

- *Not that I would do anything with it, cuz my name aint Jasmine Sullivan, I'm too grown and classy for mess like that. But I'm sure that him knowin that I have all that info made it a lil hard to sleep the first couple weeks after we broke up...

=)

I guess I will be elaborating...

Can i just tell yall that i think i seen the sexiest dude on blogger today...well idk how sexy he REALLY was bc it was just a side shot of his face but damnit if his sideburns didnt look delicious!

After rereading my post and then reading your comments i feel the need to go into more detail about my past relationship. I sounded like I was in one of those Baby Boy ghetto ass relationships and it really wasn't like that. The situations that were mentioned in my last post sounded a lil hoodrattish i guess. I think the reason that I was so in love with him is because I saw how he treated his family. He has a very big family and i dont and i always wanted to be a part of somethin like that. He worked very hard. He was always workin. He does road construction o he works long hours and he also hustled on the side (hence the arrests)...to help his grandmother pay the mortgage and both of their car notes. He was the reason that i started wrkin two jobs. He made me want to be better...somewhere along the line i guess he found what he as lookin for in someone else. I dont really think that i am mad at him...i am mad at how he handled it. I know that but every once in a while i get in my feelings about the situation thats all.

Tima and Nasha asked how come I was still lonely even though we were together. He just wasnt affectionate. I need affection and compliments bc thats the way that I am. I need someone to want to cuddle and chill. That wasnt him...it was always about everyone else. His friends and his family and obviously this other chick were more important. But he was first on my list. But whatever, while my heart is broken, im glad that its over. It was a long time comin and a damned valuable life lesson. Now i know to never make someone a priortiy when you are only an option.

So after i reread that post i decided to delete Jamie Ashtonn Barksdale from my life completely. No phone calls...no plans to hang out. nothing. I am completely washing my hands of him. Also, please dont mistake my rant yesterday for angry black woman syndrome/niggaz aint shit speak. You'll never hear that come from my mouth. There is nothin sexier to me than a black man. I'm just waiting for the right one to come along.

I'm feeling alot better today!

pink.

Why me?! Why not him?

Yeah...i know...its late and I'm just now blogging. I had work to do. Anyway, I wouldnt say that I'm in a foul mood, i guess im just confused but this will be a Tell Em Why You Mad THursdays of sorts. You see, in June of this year, i found out that my boyfriend of 7 years had another girlfriend. No, he wasnt man enough to tell me...i found out...by checkin his email. He had been sending her emails talking about how much he loved her and all this other crap. After 7 years of me thinkin it was so hard to let him go, it was the easiest thing to do that Friday night for me. I didnt cry, i just called him up, told him I knew, and hung up the phone. I called my homegirl and we went to Fridays that night. It just seemed so easy to walk away and I have no idea why. After talking to this person everyday for 7 years you'd think there would be some kind of drama involved. But there wasnt. This was the man that i KNEW that I would marry. I had picked out our kids names and everything. If you would have told me that he would have another girlfriend I would have laughed bc it wasnt possible and he would never do that. Boy was I wrong. See, I never put it past him to cheat on me. And i'm pretty sure that he did during the course of our relationship. But if you knew him you would just never imagine him having another girlfriend. i dont know if you understand what im saying but its just that way. I had always been there for him whenever he needed me. I was the one that drove in the snow at 2 am to get him from the club bc he was too drunk to drive...i was the one who went to pick him up from the police station every time he was arrested. And just recently before we broke up i was the one that paid his 350 dollar phone bill...the bill that he had been talkin to his other lil girlfriend on. If thats supposed to be his girl then why didnt she pay it?!

I guess what I'm getting at is that I dont understand why this motherfucker gets to be happy in his new relationship and im the one thats lonely. Why the fuck am i getting the short end of the stick when he cheated on me?! I'm doin shit for him when I'm goin through all this shit with that whole cancer thing and his bitch ass was spending time with her?! Why am i not in a happy, sappy , cute, cuddly, holdin hands in public kind of relationship? Why cant he be lonely? how come i couldnt have got the hint long before he had a chance to break my damn heart? Believe me, if i did, I would have snatched his out his chest and stomped that bitch wit my favorite steve madden pumps. and then smushed it in the ground like I was puttin out a cigarette. Do i sound angry? good...fuck it i am pissed.

And dont give me that shit about how he'll get his bc i dont wanna hear it. I want him to feel it now. I want some shit so fucked up to happen in his relationship that he thinks back to how good he had it. And when it does, i do NOT want to him to come whinin to me bc he chose where he wanted to be. Let that girl (i wanted to type bitch, just so you know) deal with it bc im finally free from a relationship that i shouldve let go of a long time ago.

I know i prolly sound bitter...but this is the result of holding all of this inside. I try not to talk about it to my friends bc they only rehash feelings that i wish would just go away. I just want to be happy with someone yall. Its hard to explain the way that I am bc you dont know me. I am happy with myself but i was lonely before we broke up. I was always lonely with him. I just want someone that appreciates me...and i can appreciate them.

maybe ill elaborate another time. maybe not.

pink.

Why Can't There Be A Happy Medium?!

Hello Lovelies! It's Wednesday!! We have two more days to go before the holiday weekend. I love holiday weekends by the way! I even have a calender in my cubicle of all of the up coming holidays, lol. Do yall realize that we havent had a 3 day weekend since the beginning of July?! Im definitely tryna do this one up.

Anyway, todays post is about the random men in my life. These men are so crazy. i know that you are prolly thinkin that if i have a bunch (mmmmm...somewhere around 7 or 8) of men tryna talk to me then why dont i have a damned boyfriend? Well, bc they are crazy i tell you! They fit into like 3 categories: The ones who wanna wife me...tomorrow, the ones who dont know what they want, and the ones who are grown assed men but have no intention on really settling down anytime soon but still wanna talk to me when they know i'm not for that "playin second to another chick" shit (that last one was long lol, but accurate).

The ones who wanna wife me...tomorrow: These are the ones who really blow me. I mean they have all the qualities that i would like in a husband but they want to do shit like move in together, make babies, and have joint bank accounts and shit. And they want it NOW! One dude hung up on me yesterday bc he said that after he told me how he felt about me, i havent made a decision or i havent said anything about the way i feel. Well, maybe thats bc i dont feel a special way right now. We havent been anywhere or spent any time together other than me stoppin by his house and sittin on the steps with him for a couple hours. DUDE! you havent put in any work!! Plus, he always wants me to come see him....he's never been to my house...NOT ONCE! Besides, hangin up on me just got you a one way ticket to lose-my-fuckin-number-ville...i dont play that shit. There is another guy that i met on new years and we talked for like 2 months....everything was perfect. I mean almost too good to be true. And thats exactly how i started feelin. i just felt like somethin wasnt right. After the first week he was tryna get me to meet his daughter, which i was not comfortable wit bc i dont think that its a good idea to introduce children to random people in your life. Then he started askin me if i had thought about movin in with him...WHAT?! At that point i just cut him off. he called me EVERYDAY, more than several times a day, then he started leavin weird creepy messages, so i just never answered another one of his calls again.

The ones who dont know what they want: These are the ones that are all over you one minute and then get missin for like 4 days out of no where. Now ill admit, that when i like someone i like them alot. but once you piss me off one too many times, i get bored with them and its damn near impossible to get me to feel the way i did in the beginning...Island Breeze fell into this category a long time ago. Check my blog...he hasnt been mentioned in a while lol. He's just too wishy washy for me. I dont even really remember when he stopped mattering to me, prolly when he told me that i was girlfriend material and that he wanted to be with me...but he didnt wanna make it officail until October...yea ok...bc i'm really gonna wait [ S A R C A S T I C F A C E ]

The ones who are grown assed men but have no intention on really settling down anytime soon but still wanna talk to me when they know i'm not for that "playin second to another chick" shit: Omigod i hate them. and they prolly hate me too. You know why? Bc I wont give up the panty drawz. That's all they want. None of these fools in the category that i have listed get the panty drawz but this group definitely does not stand a chance. Im not interested in the wham-bam-thank-you-mam or the fuck'n'chuck thing. and if i was it would be on MY terms. These are the ones that are cool to chill wit but its guaranteed that they are gonna try and get-in-them-drawz-and-tear-dat-ass-up at some point during the hangout. they have random girls callin all the time with ringtones like lollipop by weezy or i was gettin some head by shauna

-(lmao...one time along time ago me and this dude where gettin it in and his phone rang with that Shauna ringtone and thats not what made me mad bc we had an FWB arrangement. What pissed me off was that he tried to tell me it was his mom...yea, bc im really gonna believe that =/)-

but dont understand why my goods are on CLANK CLANK! lockdown. I dont do second place honey, its either just me or not me at all...you WILL NOT straddle the fence, sorry =/

They drives me crazy i tell youz.

pink.

The RE-Education...

Hey Hey Heeey!!!! It's almost Fridaaaaay! Ok. Im done rhyming...but good morning. I am tired but very excited about my vacay!! Anyway...this here post is something that I have been thinkin about for a while but i rarely share with anyone bc...well, just bc ok? Really there isnt a reason why, its just one of the few things i voice my opinion on. I have very specific feelings about how a relationship should be between a man and woman. Now I'm not talking about a lil rinky dink relationship. I'm talkin about marriage, or a relationship with the potential of marriage. I feel like the man should be the leader and the head of the household. Regardless of how much money he makes or whatever. Now, im not the least bit submissive, AT ALL lol. but I dont believe that I have to be to let my man take care of the things that a man should. Now I do believe that if he isnt taking care of his business as a man, then as the wife, fiance, whatever it is my job to take over...but only then. I dont know if i'm sounding right. and maybe this is why i dont express my views on this topic alot. I just know what i think. The man that i hopefully end up with one day would be a king and think of himself as such. I need someone thats strong and doesnt buckle at the sign of pressure from work or life in general. Someone that has dreams and makes me want to believe in him. Someone for my sons to want to be like. But a man who also understands that while i am here to support his endeavors that i am in no way his shadow and i have goals and dreams of my own that he should support as well. Damn, you know who i just described? Barack and Michelle. Now thats the kind of relationship i want. I would say that The Obama's should be the first family even if it were only to show the black community what a black family is. Obviously not every black man is gonna be a presidential nominee...but for some reason i just get the feeling that even if Barack were a janitor Michelle would be there holding him down. And if they aint really like that then they do a damn good job of frontin.

Anyway, i know yall wonderin why im gettin all Oprah on yall and shit. I was talkin to a co-worker and friend of mine, Dante Moore. His book, (yall like how im friends with Authors and shit hunh? Yeah, i know lol) The Re-Education of the Female just came out last month and I read it bc I'm always trying to get to know what men like and what goes on in that teeny weeny tiny brain of theirs lol. Dante says alot of things in his book that may piss some women off, but that i understand. This book isnt a step by step guide to how to get a man its just his thoughts about what women are doing wrong. He's very straight-foward...kinda like he's talkin to his boys...so it gets kinda harsh, but it is what it is. We want the truth but we are asking the wrong person. Which is something he discusses...

-Wait a minute...i dont even know why the hell I'm givin his ass all this damn exposure when he didnt even blog like i asked him too!! I reach millions...MILLIONS with my blog each day (ok...maybe im exaggerating) but he cant even give us somethin other than the stale crap he blogged about back in '78?! Oh yeah...check him out here-

But yeah, he discusses a wide range of topics in his book from why he thinks men cheat, to the break down of the black family, sex and even religion. It's a book that i think all black women who are interested in learning how men think should read as well as men...i wanna know if Dante is right in his assumptions lmao!

Sorry if i got all deep on yall...this just goes to show im not as retarded as you think ;)

pink.

What I Mean Is...

Damn I aint get no love on yesterdays post!! lmao. Anyway...i reread my post from yesterday and the part where i said that i needed some mucho exellente sex action stuck out to me. you see, last night while i was at work Island Breeze texted me and said that he thought that i needed something and that he had it for me. That i would really Really REALLY enjoy it and all this other stuff. That right there let me know he was talkin nasty and that also let me know that he is definitely readin everyday (even tho he said he changed his mind about readin my blog). It kind of irritated me bc i clearly specified in my post that not just anyone would be gettin that treatment. And as of right now...he is just anyone. so i am going to fully explain what i mean when i say i want some sex.

I dont mean just sex. i can get that from anywhere. As a matter of fact i can name about 5 guys that i know want the goods. They are not gettin them bc either they dont have the entire package or i havent gotten to know them. You see, what im lookin for is someone who i can laugh and joke with but also be serious with. Someone who i am totally comfortable to do anything with. Someone who is openminded, doesnt always like to hear themselves talk about...themselves and someone who understands that while i like you and enjoy spendin time with you, i work 14 hour days, 70 hour weeks and sometimes i just dont fuckin feel like bein bothered. is that so wrong?

Im not askin that they make $60,000 a year...or that they be ready to get married next tuesday. Just a chill ass person that i can chill in the house wit, or go to the stripclub or whatever it is that we decide that we are into. Its nice to be held at night and snuggled when its stormin...you want that shit to you just dont wanna say it!

While im on this rant tho, please do not underestimate the power of some good dick. That shit works wonders for a stressful day. Yep. I think ima start handin out applications or somethin lol cuz this is serious. You'll like me...i promise! If you do your part, I make bomb ass club sandwhiches after a good sex session...just thought i'd let you know that.

pink.

Me...complaining.

*side note* Is it me? Or does The Dream sound like a sick baby lamb in his song "i love ur girl"? Listen to it next time its on. The part where its like "she drop it down to flo, im like shawty you should go and she like aaaaaaaah...aaaah...aahhh!" Sick baby lamb i tell you.



I had a serious post for you guys today but i thought against it. you see, my blog is linked to my facebook account. That means that everyone that I went to middle and high school with would know alllllll of my business. That used to didnt bother me...but now it does. why? i havent the slightest. I know i know...youre sayin...pink, honey....why dont you just unlink it? And i would if a.) i remembered how and b.) i actually remembered to do it. So since i havent...you guys will just have to do with what i dont mind facebook knowing....

I HAVENT HAD SEX IN A LOOOOONG TIME!

Dont look at me like that. In my last post i said we did bad things...i didnt say I got some sex. Honestly, I dont even really know if im feinin anymore. I think that i just like to shout it out every once in awhile. I mean, i could get some sex if i reeeeeeally wanted it. so that means that i must not want it that bad right? i guess. I think that its really more of an intimacy thing. You know, someone to hold hands with...someone to be affectionate with. Stuff like that. I mean...me and Island Breeze are kinda like that but not really. I enjoy the time i spend with him but it takes alot for me to just be all kissy kissy with someone. I guess im sayin I want a boyfriend. But not just any old boyfriend...i want THE boyfriend. The one I can do everything with. and i do mean EVERYTHING.

*side note:* My friend just told me that he has an advance copy of his book THE MISEDUCATION OF THE FEMALE...and im tooooooooo excited!!!

Anyway where was i? Oh yeah i want a boyfriend...blah blah blah. Im not even in the mood to write about that anymore. I think i just need to chill out. Im gettin my monies together for my trip to vegas and then in November hopefully ill be somewhere outta the country sippin on alchoholic beverages wit my homegirl Sunshine!! Man, thats my ace for real...i miss her =(...she keeps me semi sane...so that means that ive basically been crazy since the end of May. I have *hold on...im countin my calendar...* 25 days til she comes home!!!! Holy Tatar Sauce people! And she brought me somethin extra fab from ITALIA.

Anyway im just rambling...its tuesday...im bored...and im going to bloghop now.

pink.

You Can Take Everything Else...But I'm Keeping This!!

Tuesday!! For me this means I have 2 more days til my Friday (which is really Thursday) and I dont have to work ALLLLLL freakin weekend!!!! Can you tell I'm excited? And Sunshine comes home in like 52 days!!! We is gon P-A-R-T-Y!!!

Oh yeah!...update on my conversation with Mr. Crazy/Deranged. It went ok. I dont think he was really receptive to what I was sayin...or maybe he just didnt understand that i was tellin him that i DID NOT want to talk to him anymore. I dont know...I just told him that he had a lot of issues to deal with before he should be tryna get with anyone else...namely me. He just agreed with what i was saying the whole time. so well see if i continue to get calls from him or not. i hope not. =)

Back to what i was supposed to be blogging about...I started thinkin aobut it when i was drivin in to work today. I saw a guy with a COWB.OYS decal on his back window. I dont know what made me think about it today when i see them all the time but whatever....wait...im sure ur like "what the hell is she talkin bout, why does this even matter?!" But you see, when me and my ex boyfriend first got together i didnt know anything about football. i decided i wanted to learn and he was the one who tought me. I learned about football with the Cowboys...my first jersey is a cowboys jersey and we even went to a Cowboys game in Dallas! I'm a cowboys fan for life! Its just that way. When we broke up for good, i was all about gettin rid of everything that reminded me of him. Ringtones...CD's that belonged to him, his boxers, Tshirts, and any other thing that he might have left around my apartment. I even deleted his phone number so that when he called his name wouldnt pop up. he would be nameless and in a sense...unimportant. So when i so the decal today i was like, "yeah, i probably should get another team." But then not even 2 seconds later i was angry!! Like, mad. lol. and I was thinkin "Eff that! I'm not gonna stop likin them bc of him!!" I have never been so proud to be a cowboys fan in my life!! lol...it kinda felt like a divorce like you can have the house, but im takin my kids you bastard!! lmao. But seriously...im keepin that.

Cant wait for the first game of the season!!

pink.

Crraazzzy....Deraaaaanged

Good Morning!

I took this title from a Martin Lawrence stand up of the same title. Last Sunday i happen to run into a guy that i went to school with. I hadnt seen him since the last day of sixth grade, so we exchanged numbers promised to call and all that. I was really excited that i rhad seen him, i thought maybe we could date and stuff. you know, nothin serious (im still really feelin island breeze). So he came by Thursday night and as soon as he opened his damned mouth i was ready for him to leave. He was just so negative. Everyone had wronged him, his father beat him. his mother was poor...yadda ya...blah blah. I just couldnt believe it. He even told me how he used to fight when he was younger and how he had almost killed someone (or somethin like that...do i believe that shit...hell no.) OMG...he even said he was like a black Robin Hood..stealin from white people to give to the black people in the hood [blank.stare]. no bullshit...he said that. WTF is wrong with you?!?!? That is what i was shouting in my head. Then he had the nerve to ask if i was feelin him. WHAT?!?! No. All i feel is drained. from you and your drama and baggage. I dont have that and i dont feel the need to bring that into my blessed life. I guess underneath that anger he is a sweet guy. He said that he was lonely. awwwww. but i can see why. no one in their sane mind would deal with that. So i avoided him all weekend and yesterday i finally called him (i would avoid him altogether but my pt job is in the same mall as his job and he knows where i work) and heeres how the conversation went:

him: hey, i thought you didnt wanna talk to me no more...you werent returnin my calls or nothin.
me: i told you that it was gonna be a busy weekend with Carnival and all.
him: yea well i aint know it was gonna be that busy.
me: *rollin my eyes* well it was.
him: well i really wished that i could have spent sometime there with you...you know a couple hours something.
me: i told you on thursday that you couldnt go. its a girl thing...you dont bring sand to the beach. you just dont.
him: i understand.
me: *breathing hard....rolling my eyes* ok.
him: *inaudible mumble* man people just doin me wrong man...broken promises...*i think i stopped listen at this point bc i dont really remember what he said*
me: right.
him: hold on...
he goes into some liquor store or gas station and brings a drink to the register...
cashier: 3.27 please.
him: THREE DOLLARS AND TWENTY SEVEN CENTS?! oh i aint know it was that much...na na ill put that joint back...just ring me up for this. *i have no idea what "this" is...im guess an ice tea or somethin*
cashier: *snatches drink i think* other drink is 2.07
him: *kirkin out* AWW HELL NAW...YOU GON RESPECK ME! IM A GROWN MAN IN HERE...YOU GON RESPECK ME! AND ACTUALLY I WAS GONNA PUT THAT DRINK BACK BUT YOU WANNA SNATCH SHIT!
*At this point im makin the "ooookaaaaay" face bc i dont know what else to do...
him: aight im back....sorry bout that.
me: ur good *this is said in the im not amused voice*
him: whats wrong wit you? you bein all short.
me: i told you i was tired. its been a long weekend.
him: yea you did. well i guess ill just talk to you tomorrow or somethin...i really wanna spend some time with you...
me: yea ok. ill let you know what my schedules lookin like...
him: aight...ill be thinkin bout you..
me: *chuckle* aight.

end conversation.

I called me homegurl and told her what had just happened and we both came to the conclusion that i need to just tell him upfront that i cant deal with him bein so negative. he brings my mood down everytime i talked to him *oh shit! he just called...lemme tell him how i feel and ill get at yall later*

pray for me...AND HIM!

pink.

WTF?!

Below is a posting from Craig’s List from a girl who is trying to find herself a husband, and then a guy actually responded to it…it’s too funny..!

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The Original PostWhat am I doing wrong?

Okay, I’m tired of beating around the bush. I’m a beautiful(spectacularly beautiful) 25 year old girl. I’m articulate and classy.I’m not from New York. I’m looking to get married to a guy who makes at least half a million a year. I know how that sounds, but keep in mindthat a million a year is middle class in New York City, so I don’t thinkI’m overreaching at all.
Are there any guys who make 500K or more on this board? Any wives? Could you send me some tips? I dated a business man who makes average around 200 - 250. But that’s where I seem to hit a roadblock. 250,000 won’t get me to central park west. I know a woman in my yoga class who was married to an investment banker and lives in Tribeca, and she’s not as pretty as I am, nor is she a great genius. So what is she doing right? How do I get to her level?

Here are my questions specifically:

- Where do you single rich men hang out? Give me specifics- bars,restaurants, gyms

-What are you looking for in a mate? Be honest guys, you won’t hurt my feelings

-Is there an age range I should be targeting (I’m 25)?

- Why are some of the women living lavish lifestyles on the upper eastside so plain? I’ve seen really ‘plain jane’ boring types who havenothing to offer married to incredibly wealthy guys. I’ve seen drop dead gorgeous girls in singles bars in the east village. What’s the story there?

- Jobs I should look out for? Everyone knows - lawyer, investmentbanker, doctor. How much do those guys really make? And where do they hang out? Where do the hedge fund guys hang out?

- How you decide marriage vs. just a girlfriend? I am looking forMARRIAGE ONLY
Please hold your insults - I’m putting myself out there in an honestway. Most beautiful women are superficial; at least I’m being up frontabout it. I wouldn’t be searching for these kind of guys if I wasn’table to match them - in looks, culture, sophistication, and keeping anice home and hearth.

It’s NOT ok to contact this poster with services or other commercialinterestsPostingID: 432279810

THE ANSWERDear Pers-431649184:
I read your posting with great interest and have thought meaningfullyabout your dilemma. I offer the following analysis of your predicament.Firstly, I’m not wasting your time, I qualify as a guy who fits yourbill; that is I make more than $500K per year. That said here’s how Isee it.
Your offer, from the prospective of a guy like me, is plain and simple acrappy business deal. Here’s why. Cutting through all the B.S., what you suggest is a simple trade: you bring your looks to the party and I bring my money. Fine, simple. But here’s the rub, your looks will fade and my money will likely continue into perpetuity…in fact, it is very likely that my income increases but it is an absolute certainty that you won’t be getting any more beautiful!
So, in economic terms you are a depreciating asset and I am an earning asset. Not only are you a depreciating asset, your depreciation accelerates! Let me explain, you’re 25 now and will likely stay pretty hot for the next 5 years, but less so each year. Then the fade begins in earnest. By 35 stick a fork in you!
So in Wall Street terms, we would call you a trading position, not a buyand hold…hence the rub…marriage. It doesn’t make good business sense to ‘buy you’ (which is what you’re asking) so I’d rather lease. In case you think I’m being cruel, I would say the following. If my money were to go away, so would you, so when your beauty fades I need an out. It’s as simple as that. So a deal that makes sense is dating, not marriage.
Separately, I was taught early in my career about efficient markets. So, I wonder why a girl as ‘articulate, classy and spectacularly beautiful’ as you has been unable to find your sugar daddy. I find it hard to believe that if you are as gorgeous as you say you are that the $500 K hasn’t found you, if not only for a tryout.
By the way, you could always find a way to make your own money and then we wouldn’t need to have this difficult conversation.
With all that said, I must say you’re going about it the right way.Classic ‘pump and dump.’I hope this is helpful, and if you want to enter into some sort of lease, let me know.

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Now...what tha fux this?! Who does this?! i got this from VSB.com...but please feel free to comment here...thx.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder...

Okay...so in all the time that i havent posted, alot of things have happened...i have given up my apartment and i have a roommate. I moved from Ft. Washington to NE, DC, which doesnt sound that far (it's not) but now i dont have the privacy of my own apartment to cuddle wit my Pookie or even just fuck him when i want to. On top of that...he's been workin these 80 hour weeks...which doesnt leave time for much of a sex life anyway. Which Brings me to my point:

I AM MISSIN MY BOYFRIEND YALL!!

We havent been able to spend a decent weekend away since i dont know when. This summer was very mundane, with all the arguin that we were doin, so we didnt do anything. Now that we are good and gravy, he's been extra busy wit work and stuff. I know some of yall prolly think im trippin... i mean he is only 21, he's a foreman for a construction company that he works damn hard for....and he's about his money. And dont get me wrong...i DEFINITELY appreciate that. but when he's workin so much that we dont ever have a chance to just see each other, i wonder if all that is worth it. Youll hear women say: Oh! money isnt everything...blah blah blah...but for me it aint. If my man made 6 figz but i never saw him bc he was on business trips all the time i would not be happy. I need time, affection, attention...those kinds of things. We talk all the time while im at work...well text each other via sidekick and we send pics to each other...but after awhile that isnt an adequate substitute for some good ole bun time. I try not to complain to him too much...other than tellin him that i miss him all the time (to which he returns the sentiment). Plus i kno that it is likely that things will slow down since winter is fast approachin and he does construction work. Maybe well plan a weekend getaway to AC or somethin...once his hours slow down. I wanna go away for christmas or thanksgivin...but THAT he is NOT havin...he's a family man...gotta be wit the fam...

Anyway...hadda get that off my chest. If we do somethin anytime soon ill be sure to post about it. Now lemme do some work! lol...

The Other Woman

Okay. So i have breifly mentioned this before. The fact that i have a male friend who is trying...no lemme rephrase that, was tryin...oh hell. who the fuck knows what hes tryna do. Anyways, the girl that he was talkin to has an issue wit me bein as close as i am to him. never mind the fact that ive known him for a little longer than a year and she just met him. She said she didnt have a problem with our friendship, but when he invites me to lunch and she just so happens to be in the same cafeteria, shes whisperin to him (while im sittin right in front of her, mind you) about why didnt he invite her. lets also nevermind the fact that she told him that when they were at work, to act like they werent talkin to each other. What in sam hell kinda bullshit is that?! Correct me if im wrong but we work in the Pentagon...we aint in High school. Who gives a fuck who you are talkin to? But then as soon as she sees him walkin down the hall wit me it's "Tra, why dont you walk wit me?" Leavin him in an awkward position cuz on one hand its like "well you dont wanna be seen wit me here, so im walkin wit Pink" then on the other hand he's just excited that he's gettin some kind of attention from her but in order to continue wit it, he'd have to ditch me and he knows that if it even looks like he's thinkin that, ima smack his lips off. The way i feel is like this: If she doesnt want you here, then she doesnt want you period. She's 20 fuckin 4 years old. She should know better. And he's 27! Get some fuckin balls and tell her ass that you aint goin for no bullshit!! It seriously baffles the shit outta me. i even asked him what-the-fuck-it was about her that kept him hangin around?! Was it the booty? He said no. well, between you and me (lol) his exact words were that it was wack as hell and he woulda hadda better time wit his hand. I hate to sound crude, but you and i both know its harder to get rid of someone when the dick/pussy is good. But thats not his situation. Honestly, in the last 2 months they been talkin i havent heard ONE good thing about her, he's always complainin. "She's always talkin bout herself, she dont pay attention to me-blah blah yakkity yack yack" Plus the chick aint all that cute (not hatin...i give props where they are due...THEY AINT...she aint fugly but lets just say she could use some nair on that serious ass sideburn/moustache/ cheek hair combo shes got goin on) okay, so lemme get this one right: She's a selfish, unattractive furry face bitch WIT a side of wack coota? Aw HELL NAW!! That wouldnt fly wit me.

AND shes insecure. Shes always comparin herself to me. ie: i know you like her tra, she dont have kids so she aint got stretch marks.... i know you like asses and hers is bigger than mine.... She's so flirtatious and all the guys are always talkin bout her....and the list goes on...

She knows how close we are...did she really think he wasnt gonna tell me the stuff she says? I would never say that shit to my nigga bout the next bitch...cuz if he wasnt thinkin none of that shit he prolly is now...and if he was, you definitely just confirmed that ima BAD BITCH. Im sorry but you shouldnt compare yourself to me babez....its not a good look for ur self esteem. Dont look at me like that!! i tried to be nice to her. I introduced myself...EVEN after she kept walkin past me in the halls muggin, i sent her a short lil email inviting her to lunch wit me. she accepted and acted like erything was cool, then as soon as she got back to her desk shes emailin him like, I didnt know she was 21 Tra, you like em young huh? Bitch, dont put me on yo nigga mind...cuz i WILL take him. POINT BLANK. Its not even that ima bitch, but i feel like she wants me to be. Its her fault yall not mine. Although i will say that when me and him walked up in L0VE together Friday night to see Keisha Cole...her AND her lil fat sidekick face was crunchy then a mafucka...lol. Guess he didnt tell her i was comin or that he was buyin my drinks all night...lmao.

I know this post was kinda long and i was rambling and venting...but im gettin tired of her ass and he needa gon and SUPERMAN DAT HO right on outta here....

Back in Effect!!

It was short lived, but my single days have come to an end...i know i know! There are alot of you young men that had the potential to be pimped...but alas, I have been re-snatched up by the ex. And i must say that it feels pretty damn good! I never wanted to be single in the first place but after 6 years sometimes you start feelin like there's a possibility that you may have had enough of that person. And i have learned that i can never get enough of him. I had more fun with him this weekend, not doin a damn thing, than i have on the many dates that ive been on. This time its for good. I think we both needed that time apart to get our shit together. I think it also showed us what we appreciated about each other. The things that got on my nerves 6 months ago, i actually started missing once we broke up. Now i know that i can handle when he leaves the toilet seat up...or when he leaves the cords to his PS3 strewn across the living room floor. That doesnt bother me anymore because it means that he's here. That he's comin back home.

To have someone in your bed when you roll over is an amazing feelin...especially if its someone that you love and dont mind kissin even when their mornin breath smells like day old peas in a pot. To hear someone elses keys in the door, when your at home curled up wit a book and some sleepytime tea is the best. I have that now and i wouldnt trade it for all the mishaps and blind dates that i have written for you all to read. Im sure ill have other interesting things to write about but if not, i apologize and tell yall to kiss my ass in advance!!

-PiNK AND POOKiE iS BACK iN EFFECT MUTHAFUCKAZ!-